After Cassy and I talked she decided she wanted to go as she had something important she needed to do .

I sat down on my bed as memories began to flood my mind again

‘Babe come on it’s just skating you can do it ‘ Zack said smiling

‘I can’t do anything Zack , nothing I’m not good at anything ’ I whispered

Noticing I didn’t get a reply back I looked back and noticed that Zack had a sad expression on his face .

‘What is it Zack you look so sad ?’ I asked him

‘I’m mad at you Harriet you can’t keep saying you can’t do anything I believe you can do anything you put your mind to do . Okay ?’ He said

‘Hmmmm’ I hummed

‘You know why because you are bold , strong and able to do all things , I believe in you ’ he added

Nodding my head in approval I smiled knowing for the fact that he was always in support of anything I choose to do and he believed in me

“Harriet ” he called me .

“Yes”I answered

“I need you to repeat what I just told you “ he said

“I’m strong ,bold and able to do all things ” I repeated .

“That’s good ” he replied hugging me

Tears streamed my face as I kept thinking of all the times he stood in for me and helped boost my self confidence .

Another thought came in my mind

‘Smile for me ‘ Zack said.

‘Why ?’ I asked .

‘Because I love admiring that smile of yours ‘ he said

‘That’s weird Zack I can’t just start smiling at nothing in particular’ I said

‘Alright let me crack a joke’ He said

‘Zack you and I both know you are bad at cracking joke ‘ I replied laughing

‘Exactly that’s the aim see you laughed ‘ he replied laughing also .

Laughing so hard I realized he did make me laugh without cracking a joke as I had laughed unknowingly .

‘Fine you don ‘ I replied laughing .

That was it , he was my smile , laughter ,tears , supporter, everything positive.

I still remembered how I heard the tragic news that day I had first called his name the moment I woke up from being in coma for two months .

And the doctor had said to me while I discharged that unfortunately he couldn’t make it and he had passed on . I still remember being mute and not talking for a year I just stared and kept mute .

It took a while to finally realize that he had left me indeed and I couldn’t do anything about it .

Although the past few months has being the closet to being normal than I have every being and I was grateful to Cassy for helping in some way .

My eyes still filled with tears I wondered why life was this way and why can’t things be normal was it always going to be this way. The flashbacks and memories couldn’t stop and at some point even though I didn’t want to forget Zack I wished I could forget the memories.

Picking up my phone I decided to call my therapist.