“Harriet get downstairs this minute and I hope you don’t plan on wearing that ” mother said staring at my cloth in disgust

“Mother I had no intention of going in the first place so either I wear this or I’m not going at all” I replied

I noticed an uninvited member seated on the sofa Stephen Mario dressed in dress pants, black Button down shirt paired with a black blazer

One would immediately address him as a respectable responsible young man

“ I would leave you too together ” mother said leaving

Standing up he held out his hands “ you don’t speak or what ?” He said rudely

I kept silent staring at him

Ignoring me in return he walked out heading for his car as I followed slowly behind

Without opening the car door for me I decided to open the back seat door by myself

“Hey I don’t want to be mistaken for an Uber driver come forward ” he said rudely

I didn’t still give a reply as I typed into my device

“Are you normal or dumb , at least a dumb person communicates better. The least you can do is acknowledge and reply to me when I talk “ he said

Giving him a shocked expression I finally replied

“Are you always this rude and disrespectful to women or do you have a problem today ” I finally spoke

For the first few seconds he looked shocked that I spoke

“Disrespectful?! Psstttt you think so high of yourself for a Philip you sure foolish ” he replied “Well for a Mario you lack manners ” I murmured As I opened the car door heading back home “Woman Get back here ” he yelled after me

“Until you learn how to properly address a lady appropriately I don’t want to see you near me ” I replied

“Back so early ” mother asked

I choose to ignore her going to my room but Stephen rushed in

“Ma’am I’m disappointed that I couldn’t go through with the date but your daughter has refused to go on the date with me ” he said so politely

I was beyond shocked on how a person could changed personalities so quickly

In front of me he was a rude egoistical mannerless creature but in front of mother he sounded so polite well mannered young man My mother stared at me “Harrietttttt”

“m—-ummm I cannnn ex— plain ”her stares made me stammer

“ I was called names by her all I wanted was to get to know her cause I’m interested in her ” Stephen added lying more

“That’s not true ” I replied

“I have had enough of your rebellious character Harriet the engagement has been fixed Three weeks time you will be engaged to Stephen Mario ” My father said walking in

With a spinning head I held my hands to my head

“ I have had enough being tagged as a lunatic I can accept that but having to marry this egoistical jerk that I won’t take I can’t it won’t happen I can’t disappoint za—-ck ” I yelled crying

“He promised we were one but all you guys ever wanted was to separate us cause of your stupid reputation and status it’s always been about you you couldn’t care of your daughter ..

You tag me as a lunatic but don’t know what I pass through daily the memories , thoughts being mute wasn’t because I like it but just because I feel at peace when I’m mute ” I said pouring out my mind as I breathed heavily climbing the stairs to my room

“Harriet get back here ” I heard but I choose to ignore them

Entering my room I picked up my phone to dial my therapist

“Hello” I called

“Hello Harriet How are you doing ” she replied

I didn’t have a response to that cause I wasn’t feeling okay at the moment

Sensing that she asked “Do you need anything “ “A session ” I replied

“Okay FaceTime as usual or physical “ she asked

I had to overcome my fears I needed to go physical

After a long pause I took a deep breath saying “Physical ”

“Okay that’s progress expecting you Harriet ” she said

Few minutes later I dressed in baggy jeans and T shirt as I left the house

At the door step I heard “ don’t do anything stupid your fiancée would be disappointed “ mother said

I knew she was basically taunting me cause she never lost a battle

Without replying her I shut the door leaving the house I wasn’t going to exchange words with her

While my driver opened the passenger seat door for her I was a little anxious for today’s appointment

“Good day I’m Harriet booked an appointment with Charlie ” I told the receptionist

“Okay few more minutes you go on ” she replied

Few minutes later

“Hello Harriet ” Charlie greeted smiling

“Hello” I replied

“I’m so glad you wanted physical ” she replied Nodding my head

“Let’s begin “ she said

“ how has it been Flashbacks ?” She asked “Yess” I said quietly

“The incident that took place four years ago do you still blame yourself ” she asked jotting down

Nodding my head in reply

“Harriet I know that coming here physically already took a lot of courage to do that but I need proper communication I have been your therapist for four years … I need you to imagine you are alone in this room and pour out your mind to everything ” she said

“So I would ask your few questions and I need your view on it ” Charlie said

“Four years back you stated you were at fault I need to know why you feel and believe you were

the cause of the incident back then ” she asked Flashing back tears streamed down my face.