I am ready to tell him that he is the man of my life. That he deserves every grain of feeling I have for him.

I'm ready to tell him that I struggled to forget Jimmy. That it was like ripping my heart out of my chest even though I was hiding my pain. But that he was so patient with me that I could only love him back for all the love he showered on me without ever asking for anything.

I'm ready to tell him all that.

But I'm not ready to give birth.

Especially if William is not there.

Relief. That's what I remember precisely. The nurse...