Five days without Leion is like living in hell because it feels like anytime my parents will ask about it, what I saw or news that may have reached them, and I need to talk to Leion. These days that have passed, it seems to be getting worse. My thoughts, even the silence of my parents, I feel something is wrong. I don't know if it's my fault for thinking too much about bad things, or if I'm just worried about the possibility of something bad happening.

 

I'm careful, not only for Leion and my reputation but also for our family, that I'm the only one who does favors. I usually do my obligation as his wife, that even in front of other people, we stand up and say that we love each other.

 

I have paid several people in the media just to not release the picture that was seen. I have paid several people, and that is why I can sleep well, because maybe when I wake up, it will be Lion of the news.

 

A bad public image is not good for business. Everyone knows that. We are still young. This is what Mama and Papa taught me. because your reputation will reflect on the company that you're managing.

 

My anxiety will be the death of me. And speaking of the devil, when I was drinking my fourth glass of wine, I heard Leion's car.

 

So I walked to the door, opened it, and was surprised to see him. He looked happy now. I wonder what he and Carmie did for the 5 days.

 

I was looking at him. In every move he made, my eyes were on Leion, until he got bored and dropped his bag, which should have been upstairs in his room.

 

"What, you're creeping me out." By the way, you look at me, "What's wrong with you?" Leion asked, and I took a sip from the glass of wine before I answered him.

 

"You're asking what is wrong with me. I will return your question to you," I promised, before returning to my seat in the living room.

 

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I said, and Leion seemed shocked at the way I talked to him.

 

"Do you know how many people I need to pay, so they won't upload your photos, together with Carmie, at the nearest mall?" I almost shouted, because for five fucking days, I almost went crazy thinking that our parents might see it.

 

"I never forbid you-"

 

"You have no right to forbid me!" Leion shouted, and I smirked at him.

 

"I am not done talking, and I know that I have no right to forbid you, but can you please be careful in your actions, because you will be further apart if you don't know how to be careful!" Leion massaged his head before approaching me.

 

"Tell me why, and give me a reason, so I can hide the girl I love so much."

 

"Because you're married to someone else!"

 

"Someone else that I don't fucking love,"

 

I show him my disapproving look. I know, but it hurts more, especially when Leion himself told me.

 

What if our parents see that picture? What are we going to do? Deny it even though the evidence is clear? " I almost cried and was still trying my best to explain it to Leion.

 

"Shut up, it's your responsibility to conceal everything. You're the only one who wants this marriage!" I was stunned by his answer to me, "Why is it always me who needs to clean everything that he did?"

 

My mind is starting to have thoughts, a clouded mind, and I can't even think straight now because my emotions are fucked up!

 

"If you didn't marry me, what do you think would happen to your company?" I said it without any doubt, and a hard slap woke me up from having a clouded mind.

 

But my tears fell one after the other. I felt the pain on my cheeks as if it was sinking to the core of my being.

 

"You're crying after you said something that offensive to me?" Leion said, "It's like I'm not allowed to cry, I'm not allowed to be hurt."

 

"Why did you cry? You're the one who wants this, and seriously, you're going to blame me. Do you think I am happy that I cannot marry Carrie because of this fucking business? It's like I'm cursed!" Leion backed away and then pointed at me.

 

"Stop crying, your tears are fake. Stop acting like a nice and respectable woman, because if you are, then you shouldn't use me as collateral for the money that your fucking parents lend to Gueavez." Leion said, then left me alone downstairs.

 

I thought my chest wouldn't hurt anymore every day that Leion didn't train me properly, but today, this is the day I pray for Leion to be free, so he can be with the girl he wants.