Each person in this world desires to have a happy married life, and I am one of them. I am hoping that my husband will give the same love that I will give to him, but you know what is hard and how cruel my life is?

 

My husband doesn't see me as his wife; I am just a tool for the success of his company, which is in the middle of a crisis, and marrying me, the daughter of the wealthiest man in the Philippines, is the solution, and I know that not only Leion will benefit from his sacrifice, but also the relatives and future generations of Guavez.

 

If they asked me, "Am I happy? Am I satisfied with my life, and what does it feel like to be married to the man you've admired forever?"

 

What I always say to those who know me and my friends is that I am happy, Leion and I are happy, and nothing would be happier than the life I have, but they have no idea that what I said is a lie.

 

This is a living hell for me, yes. I was overwhelmed when I discovered that Leion's company is losing its investors and needed to sell another portion so that the money can circulate, but no one is willing to take a risk.

 

Inside my mind, I am celebrating and making a plan that even each member of his family can't say no to, once he agreed on financing the company that is about to fall.

 

I won, and that is true. To secure the money that my father gave, Leion and I planned our move immediately, after the merger of their company with MM enterprises was signed and settled.

 

The news of Leion and I's engagement broke out, and I was the only one facing the media while Leion was covered by me and his girlfriend was with him, and he said he understood Leion's situation, and he had no intention of stopping Leon.

 

I don't want to limit him or stop him from doing whatever he wants, so I keep quiet, blinding myself to the reality of my married life.

 

I am sleeping in a different room. Even if Leion eats with me, he can't do it. Even looking at my face makes him angry. He knows how to treat me in a way that I don't want to feel. I feel like I'm a very dirty person. It's so hard for him to accept who I truly am in his life.

 

But I know that I will get used to it. If we are not given the chance to be happy in this life, I won't push him, because I know that I can't force Leion to love me, accept me, or listen to me. If I request that, I will look selfish, and God knows that I am not selfish as long as I can give you everything that you need. I will give anything just to help and make people happy.

 

I looked at the overview of the city, where Leion and I's house stands, and this terrace. It gives me so much peace. The fresh breeze is like medicine for the pain I feel.

 

Today is my first anniversary with Leion, and he is not here. What else could I expect? Why would he accompany me on the day he hated the most?

 

Thank you very much. He came, and it was late. I thought I would be embarrassed in front of the church.

 

Sometimes, I am imagining things that will never happen, but what if he loves me? Do I have hope if he met me first or if the woman that Leion couldn't leave suddenly disappears?

 

But in the end, there is nothing I can do about it. I am just a wife on paper, but in Leion's heart, it's her and always her.

 

It's unfair on my part. Because I can't love someone else while I'm tied to Leion, not because it's against the law, but because it's hard to find someone better than Leion.

 

If I have a chance, I will do what makes me happy, even if it makes me look selfish. Because sometimes, being selfish will make you happy. The thing that is forbidden will lead you to some happiness, even if it might break you into pieces.

 

I sipped the wine and sat on the sofa, watching the lights above me, but to my surprise, my husband's car was approaching the gate of the mansion.

 

I know that I sound stupid, but I was encouraged. I started to believe that the wind had changed and that maybe he was ready to accept me.

 

I hurried to meet Leion, and when he got out of the car, he was holding a flower, bent over, and looking like he was drunk.

 

I went quickly to support him, but he stopped me. signal not to touch or support him.

 

He stood up, leaned against the car, and threw the flower on the floor, wiping the sweat from his forehead.

 

Leion's foot pressed against the flower that had been thrown on the floor.

 

"I owe you nothing, and tell your parents to stop demanding things that are impossible to come true." Leion passed me by and left me kneeling in the parking lot. I couldn't stop crying about the flowers he brought. Even though Mama and Papa forced him, Leion still gave it to me.

 

I need to cherish these flowers. They're an anniversary gift from the man that I love.

 

"Thank you." I wiped my tears after I whispered, I know Leion won't hear that, but at least he gave me a flower.

 

The first time that I received a gift from someone that I cherished.