I stood there starring into his eyes, I couldn't form words to say but my heart had a lot to say, I was confused, why am I not happy to be free? Free from this life, free from having to hide what I joined, free from the pressure of ever telling my kids in the future that their mama was part of the mafia world, any sane person would jump for joy.

But I guess I wasn't a sane person, cause if I was the words that were about to come out of my mouth this minute wouldn't have.

"No, I'm not leaving” I said.

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