My Queen took away from me again. I am beyond pissed; it's been months. There are no leads in Winter. I’m venting out to where people are fearing me again. I don’t want to lose control again. I’m between a rock and a hard place. I was trying to hold on to my sanity with each day that Winter is away from me. I feel myself slipping deeper into the darkness. The worst part is that Goliath wants to come to the surface and take over.

I try so hard to hold him back that most days I’m feeling myself being drained that I have to stay in bed. On...