If so, why can't I be loved of my wife? Why do I look like garbage to him? He never looked at me, I don't want to,. I'm fed up. Exhausted that I get hurt but every time I see her, this is what I'm hoping for again, that's how I am dear, that even the sickly, are here I'm still fooling him. I'm stupid "he violently scratched his head but I quickly grabbed his hand.And it hurt me, I was hurt by what he said but I know he's hurting more now.We are just in the same position. That's exactly what I want to tell her but this is...