Wrong question

I looked at Magen who patted me on the shoulder because my trance had returned. I looked at him weakly and I couldn't look away from Rapha because what he said broke my heart and I feel that if I look at him any more it will only hurt me more.

" I'm about to go in, do you want to squeeze in first or do you have something else to go to?" He asked worriedly.

He immediately took his bag from the floor and handed me candy which I immediately accepted.

I sighed, " I haven't finished eating yet," I pointed to the pancake. " You guys go first, I'll just wander around the campus after I eat," I answered with no appetite.

I went in early to catch a glimpse of Rapha, but I didn't know that I would get hurt again early. Is it good if it's like yesterday before I went home today before class even started, I'm floating right away. It's my fault, Yes it is me.

He sighed " Are you sure?" I nodded. " Alright then I need to go," he said goodbye. " Let's go, Rapha." He turned to his friend.

I didn't even bother to wait for his answer. My chest starts to tighten as if the truth that it's impossible is stuck in my throat.

" My class is later, Magen. So you go first," Rapha said coldly.

I looked up at him. I even dropped the fork I was holding so I grabbed it again in a panic. Why didn't he just leave too?

Magen scoffed " Come on, Rapha. Leave Kaela there first, " Magen insisted.

I continued to eat out of spite. It's up to them what they decide in life.

" I said go first, Magen. I still haven't finished drinking my coffee and I'm still hungry. So go first or you might be late, I won't do anything here with Yves," Rapha explained.

I heard Magen's sigh so I looked at him. His bag was hanging on his other shoulder and he raised an eyebrow at me as if he was waiting for my approval.

I nodded " Alright, maybe you're late," I pushed him away before smiling.

He straightened up and stared at me as if he was taking a look at my clumsy appearance so I immediately started to cry. I just returned my attention to what I was eating. The faster I eat, the faster I can get out of here.

" I'm leaving," he said with a laugh. " Rapha, Bro don't do stupid things," I heard Magen whisper.

Is the call still a whisper because I can hear it. Magen ruffled my hair a little before running backwards while waving, luckily no one was blocking his path but he was being laughed at.

Wrapping a silence, I can only hear a few whispers and crew talking to customers. I swallowed when I realized that right in front of me was the man who made me feel like I would never get what I wanted. Because not everything a person wants can be obtained.

It's like a knife stabbing my heart when I remember him telling me that I'm younger and that he's older so it's not possible. My chest is pounding again and sweat is forming on my forehead and my hand is shaking because my vision is starting to blur.

" Are you mad?" he asked.

I still don't look at him because I'm disgusted! I'm annoyed why not?! Why not?!

I shook my head, No words came out of my mouth and I didn't try anymore because I knew that my voice would break if it happened.

" Yves, " he called calmly.

Even if I wanted to look at him, I couldn't. I feel that when I look at him, my heart can collapse.

He sighed, heavily " Don't be mad, It's not good to frown while eating,"

I bit my lip, I still didn't say anything about what he said so we were enveloped in a silence. I could only hear a strong pulse and a pounding heart as if I felt a tremor in my chest.

I just continued eating, I chewed even faster even though I couldn't see what I was eating properly because of the tears that were about to fall. I'm so annoyed it looks like I'm going to cry right in front of him! Right in front of the reason for my tears.

" Eat slowly, don't get angry, " he said pleadingly.

I stopped chewing and glanced at him. His eyes earlier that dangerous is now pleading. I looked at her slightly moved as she looked away. I try to catch his gaze again, but he also tries to look away.

What are you guilty of? Because you're sick again? You can just shut up and change the subject, but what did you do? You slapped me with the truth that I already know.

I sighed " Isn't that over yet? " I pointed to what he was drinking. " It's over, " so you left, it's over, why are you still here?

What more do you want to ignore my feelings?

" Do you want me to leave? " He raised his brows and crossed his arm over his chest " I'll wait for you. So don't take a hurry because no matter how fast you are doing to get me to leave, you are making a mistake because I'll wait for you, " he said authoritatively.

I felt my cheeks heat up as if what he said was a smoldering fire thrown at me because of the heat around me. I parted my hair slightly that blocked my face. Will he wait for me now? Why just now ? Why not forever?

I nodded " Okay, " was my only answer.

Because I feel like the stars are clapping again because he said he will wait for me. I'm happy with what he said cause why not? It's called grace, will I still be acting?

" Do you have a boyfriend? " he asked.

I shook my head, " No, " I answered nervously.

I don't know why I suddenly felt nervous. I felt that my heart was beating fast and my knees were softened with his serious question.

" Who was with you yesterday? Does Magen know that? " Her deep and beautiful eyes narrowed.

I was silent at his question.

He chuckled " Don't answer my question. I already know, " He ran his fingers through his hair before sitting up.

I nodded, Why did he buy five pieces? What if my stomach hurts? I cringed thinking that there is medicine for stomach pain at the clinic if ever?

" Do you really have feelings for me?"

I almost vomited at the question as if the word he uttered blocked my throat. I felt my throat dry so it was hard for me to swallow.

" Just eat slowly because no one will steal that, " He laughed and pointed to the pancake and handed me his tumbler. " Drink water, my water is clean so don't act, " he said, waking up.

I had no choice but to take her water and drink it. I wonder where he bought his tumbler because this is the kind of water I want, or maybe I want it from him?

" I'm not artistic, " I lied. " It's just a little bit, " I said back.

I immediately wiped the edge of the lip with the tissue left over from the one he gave earlier. I looked at him and faked a smile. If I was invisible, I might have stared at him for a long time now that he was close to me, but since I wasn't, I immediately looked away.

I sipped my chocolate drink and leaned slightly on the back of the chair I was sitting on. I shouldn't let him know that my heart is pounding and beating fast. He shouldn't notice that my chest is starting to shake again. He must not know that my knee is shaking and softening. Even though it was hard, I tried to act like I wasn't TOO affected by his presence.

I looked up at his finger playing with the handle of his tumbler. I looked up at her beautifully curved arm up to her moving Adams apple, beautiful jaw up to her red lips.

I saw his lips rise. " You really love to look at me? " I was able to look away! He saw?! " What? Are you happy to stare at me? " he teased before grinning.

I leaned over and bowed. Shit! He saw me staring at him! And what fun? Is he really asking? I would like to answer yes that he is more beautiful to look at than the stars that shine at night.. that he is more beautiful to look at than the flowers that slowly bloom.. that he is more beautiful to glimpse than fireworks but because I didn't have the courage so I just kept my mouth shut.

He chuckled " Oh, Don't be shy, " he grinned again, I looked at him. " That's normal, " he nodded.

My mouth dropped because of what he said. That's what I told Reil when I rejected him that it's normal for him to like me. I said that so he wouldn't be offended and wouldn't be too hurt or overthink because I don't like him! So, is he telling me this because he is the same? I mean he doesn't want me to get hurt or overthink?

" I know you're not supposed to say more, " I said gruffly before grabbing my bag.

He sighed " You have an attitude? " he laughed and said before standing up carrying the bag as well.

I stopped walking because of what he said. Attitude?

" What attitude? You are the attitude between the two of us. You drove me away yesterday when I peeked through the window of your room, " I reasoned.

He immediately looked at me seriously, I even saw him tighten his grip on his bag before looking away. I was only up to his neck so I looked up slightly. I sighed before looking away and starting to walk.

" Why you always looking us over the window? " he asked seriously as he followed me.

what us I'm just staring at you! If only the look can dissolve you have been dissolved for a long time!

I even saw Ate Pia in the hallway who was surprised because Rapha was chasing me. He's chasing me, isn't it possible that I feel the same for him? Because I'm ready to wait for him to catch up. Even a little, even as little as a star at night.

Is that too little?

" Nothing, " I sat on the bleachers.

He also sat down and raised an eyebrow at me. " You stood there for almost a few minutes and there was nothing? Are you insane? " he asked with a frown.

I was about to put my bag on the floor when he stopped me. "It will get dirty, " he said simply before placing it on my thigh.

I grimaced and shook my head " Earlier in the cafeteria we also put it on the same floor, " I was about to put it down when he picked me up again.

" I said don't, it's dirty here and someone stepped on the cafeteria because it's being cleaned almost every hour. If you put it there, you'll have a hard time washing your bag because it's still white, " he sighed.

" It's so heavy, " why did I bring a book? Of course pretend to be a full student!

He chuckled " It 's me, " He placed my bag on his thigh.

I was surprised when he put his on the chin while holding mine. I was suddenly embarrassed!

" Don't! It's your poor bag, " I pointed at his bag before taking mine.

He took his bag and put it on my thigh " Let's change the tumbler first, it only contains filler and ballpens so it's light, "

I just nodded, I slightly lifted his bag. Even her perfume clings to her bag. If I hug him, will his smell stick to me?

" Don't look out the window so you won't be mistaken for a stalker. Now that I know you if you want to come to our other meetings. Tell me and you're going with me as long as you don't just watch us over the window and looking what we're doing. I'll take you with me just tell me, " He seriously said.

He hugged my bag for a moment before checking my reaction. He grinned before fixing his hair and giving me another sly smile.

" Are you really going to take me? " he nodded. " They might get angry, sister Pia, "

He pouted " It's fine, I'm the leader and they can't do anything if I bring you along. As long as you don't talk, "

Not talkative? Can I do that? Well, I can do that, especially since I'm not close to his classmates, but he's there! Okay, I was immediately quiet just by looking at him, so no problem.

" What if I talk?" I will ask.

He looked at me seriously, Okay wrong question.

" I will discuss it, so you can't talk to me during the meeting,"

"What if I babble?"

He glared at me " Why do you have a different type from my groupmates?" his eyes narrowed.

I was surprised by his question so I shook my head in confusion " No! "

" Are you sure? "

He sat up and stared at me. I looked at my feet because I felt that my panties had fallen from his deadly gaze. I winced at the thought.

" When I was the one you wanted? " He raised his brows. " Why do you still have plans to flirt? " He stood up and pulled his bag towards me.

Anyway, he slowly placed my bag on my thigh. He stared into the void before abandoning me!

Is he mad at me? I really asked him the wrong thing!