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You were trying to pleasure yourself but some weird reasons you could not. May be because you don't really know where to touch!
Sexual play has always something disgusting for you because of your past experience. But now that you are really turned on and getting to know you are body, you are feeling nothing but hopeless.
You are wet you know that, but the way you are touching is turning you off. You don't know where to touch and how?
How people pleasure themselves?
The pressure you are giving in your clit is may be not enough to slip through your hole.
"Agh!" You say out of frustration....