The week went fast and the only time you attempt to kill yourself was a easy one to handle by Jimin. So yeah. You were living. Still. You hate that but you had to. Cause them will not let you.

It was Saturday and you had no plans. Just as usual. You were lying on the library sofa while your phone rang.

"What?" You ask to your best friend.

"I am paying for pizza you wanna see a horror movie or something?" Jungkook asked casually.

"Where? Your house or mine?" You asked sitting as you might be going out tonight.

"Yours. Dad is fucking some girls here so its crowded. I don't want him to see you with his hoe eyes." You want to puke with the words that Jungkook just said. But you hold yourself.

"When are you coming then? Are you staying the night?" You say.

"May be in an hour. I will just go to the bacon shop and buy food for us and will be riding directly to your home. And yes. I am staying the night." You say your bye and went to your room. You took the paper scissors on hour hand and Jimin run to you.

"Miss Min, please don't hurt yourself." Jimin said. You chuckled.

"Relax Jimin. I am just cutting my hair. These are boring me." Saying you cut your hair. Your long hair. Your favourite thing in this world. It was the size of your hips before but now its your neck leagnth. Why are you doing this? Well you are killing a part of you. Its your most favourite part.

Tears are flowing from your eyes in unstoppable way. But you dont care. You are feeling disgusted by yourself. You want to burn your whole body and throw it somewhere safe. The words Jungkook said is pinned in the deepest nerve on your brain. "I don't want him to see you with his hoe eyes" men. Disgusting shit.

After cutting all your hair short, you sit on the floor and started to cry. Jimin sit on 3 feet Distance of you and watch you crying.

"Yes Master. Min, I think Miss Min had a panic attack." Jimin said on the phone and within a second the phone was on hour ears.

"Momo? Are you okay?" Yoongi asked and you wipe your tears.

"I am just fine. I was bored so I cut my hair." You say casually.

"Momo, baby," he sighed.

"I am fine Yoongi. I even have a plan with Kook later in the night." You say.

"Remember tomorrow at 1 pm. Its your appointment with your new therapist." He said.

"I remember. You enjoy the party." You say and cut the line.

"You need to be more supportive" you sarcastically say to Jimin.

"I am Miss Min." He said and help you to stand up.

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Jungkook was shocked to see your hair. You shrugged and told him it was nothing major. He was on his all black clothes which simply means he is sad. He hates when his dad fucks girls. Some of them are his age and some of them are even younger. His mother is in coma so his father is technically cheating. But then again what can be considered cheating when all she does is breath.

You and him eat the pizza and you open your huge netflix screen. "You okay?" You manage to ask Jungkook. He sighed.

"Y/N, do you think sex is that important? Like eating and bathing?" He asked you and you become stiff. Your blood is itching on your veins.

But your best friend is as broken as you. He needs help too. "No. But for some people it is." You say. "What you wanna see?" You change the subject.

"Veronica." Jungkook said. You nod.

After two family size pizza and 8 bottles of beers both of you were too drunk to be scared. So you decided to cuddle and sleep. You do not feel secure arround men. You always feel they are mentally undressing you and raping you.

But not Jungkook. He is not like them. If anything possible then woman would rape him. You do not flinch when he touch you. So you can cuddle to sleep with only him other than Yoongi of course.

Talk about Jimin, you are actually comfortable to him too. Not that he has to touch you or you touch him. But for past three years he has been with you like a thin air. There is somewhere a comfort between you and him too.

Before you could think anything you fell in sleep with Jungkook holding you.

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"Good morning broken kids. Rise and shine. Did you had pot last night? No? How boring!" Jin said before you could react your covers are gone.

"What the fuck Jin Hyung!" Jungkook shouted.

"Shut up you punk. Get up I am here to do a regular check up." He said and you sigh heavily.

Kim Seokjin is Yoongi's best friend also a respective doctor in Seoul. He is your physical doctor. Every day when you had to go to your therapist your regular check ups are done by him. Its like a preface.

"Okay." He said after twenty minutes of check up. You sigh. Jungkook roll on your bed while Jin and you were sitting in the sofa.

"The new guy, he is a gem. I hope he stays." Seokjin said and you roll your eyes.

"Hyung, these are waste of time you and I both know." Jungkook said yawning.

"Whatever. Go and get ready. Yoongi is waiting in the breakfast table." Jin said.

You and Jungkook took turns and had your showers. After being done both Jin and Yoongi was waiting so four of you eat breakfast together.

After that you said bye to Jungkook and you sit on your studio. Your mind was blur so you try to calm it down by using your brushes.

Best way of thinking.

You took your phone and it was 12.30 Jimin was ready so you hop into the car and its time to meet your new therapist.

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A.n.

I decided to make a playlist of this book. But I am not sure of I could do that. So I would be putting one song that came to my mind while writing the chapter.