Here's another week, worse than the first. After the quarrel between Luther and I, I did not see him at all....as if he was never there. I heard from Teilhard that he stays in his room or office all the time and does not come out unless he knows that I am sleeping or out of the house. On the other hand, I also ignore him completely, I do not join him for dinner, I do not come close to him if I happen to see him in front of me talking to the guards, he is like a ghost I do not see.

I can still feel his hand...