#Chapter4

Shen Yu Tian stared at Li Na’s body. He did nothing to it. No touches were given. No words were uttered.

Li Na waited for him to do something. Anything like any ordinary person would do when they were angry, scream at the top of their lungs or hit the walls to relieve the bubbling heat of madness in them.

But no, Shen Yu Tian did nothing of that sort. He just remained unmoved as he sat next to her dead frozen body.

If her body was still in its perfect form, she would be reminded of the beautiful princess Snow White. But, sadly, her rotten and decayed body made her look so similar to the zombies in horror movies.

Li Na cringes in disgust at the thought of it. She turned her eyes away from her body hoping it might help ease that sickening impulse.

Her eyes somehow managed to land on Shen Yun Tian. The unmoving man who had never left his eyes from her body. Thus, she began to observe him.

She didn’t know why but when she was still living with Shen Yun Tian, she couldn’t notice his appearance. There was just too much anger and fury that clouded her eyes so she didn’t truly see and appreciate him.

But since she was dead, those heavy feelings were not there anymore. Now in her clear mind, she wants to appreciate and remember this man. Li Na cannot stop but eagerly ogle his features.

Each of them were perfectly lined and drawn on his face. Even the skin looked so smooth without any scar or injury. Li Na cannot help but raise her finger to touch and graze his face.

She wanted to feel him. But at the moment she thinks that her touch could be connected to him, her fingers just pass through his face. It reminded her that she was no longer a living person. She was dead.

Filled with disappointment and frustration, she sits beside Shen Yun Tian and hugs herself. Her sad eyes stare at that lonely figure. All kinds of depressing thoughts play in her mind.

Suddenly a phone ringing startled Li Na. Shen Yun Tian calmly answers the phone. After a moment of listening to the other person, Shen Yun Tian kinda loses his cool and immediately reaches for his car’s key.

He moves fast. Shen Yun Tian puts her body inside the car and rapidly drives to his destination.

His face was so tight and rigid. Li Na doesn’t know who had provoked him and was wondering what had happened.

Shen Yun Tian drives fast while ignoring all the traffic rules just to arrive quickly.

The car finally stopped at an old abandoned building. It looks isolated and there were no other buildings surrounding it. He moves inside, each step is so powerful.

There are several muscular men that greet him upon seeing his arrival. “Sir, we have captured him.” Shen Yun Tian’s eyes become cold. He silently nodded to his man. The men guide him and move to a place further inside.

Li Na can feel that the passage became darker and colder inside. It makes her frightened but what can harm her? She is already dead. She curiously looks at Shen Yun Tian and follows him. She wants to find out what they want to do.

After about 5 minutes of walking, Shen Yun Tian comes into a dark room. There is only a light bulb that dimly brightens the room, vaguely describing the situation inside.

Li Na notices that there is a man forcibly kneeling on the floor with five other men surrounding him. His bloody and wounded appearance slightly makes him unrecognizable but from his build, it’s hard for Li Na to not identify him.

Certainly, that is Ru Feng! His shattered appearance contrasted usual mighty him. It’s the first time for Li Na to see him like this, especially after he became an idol. The man that cruelly looked down on her now looks too miserable.

Ru Feng tries his hardest to look up and see the incoming person. As he realizes that the person is Shen Yun Tian, he sneers at himself.

“How can I not realize that the only man who is capable of seizing me is only you, Shen Yun Tian!!!” Ru Feng tries hard to stand and attack Shen Yuan Tian but even before he is able to move, the men that surrounded him pull his hand and push his face on the floor.

Li Na can hear a cracking sound from Ru Feng’s shoulder bone. “Ahhh!!!!” Ru Feng screams. His body shakes hard. One of the men kicks his rib making Ru Feng continue howling in pain.

After Ru Feng didn’t have any energy left to look up or even to scream, Shen Yun Tian finally opened his mouth. “Didn’t I tell you to take care of her? I had given you everything you wanted with the promise that you must be good to her. Remember?” His gaze is murderous and vicious.

“You mean those support? Hahaha. Thank you. But those cannot stop my vengeance. I really hate that woman!” Ru Feng’s eyes are full of hatred and loathing.

From this conversation, it seems that all resources Ru Feng obtained to reach the peak of his career came from Shen Yun Tian. Li Na never knew about it.

Ru Feng smirks as he mpcks Shen Yun Tian, “That slut deserved everything. That kind of selfish woman who just thinks of herself doesn’t deserve to be happy! If she was alive, she must have thought herself to be so pitiful. Hey Shen Yun Tian, from the time she left you, she never thought about you at all. Why must you dwell on that kind of slut? You have nothing to do with each other.”

Shen Yun Tian tightens his jaw, “She is my wife.”

“Hahaha. You mean ex-wife. The divorce agreement was already signed years ago. Pitiful,” Ru Feng laughs.

“Who signed it? She is still my wife,” Shen Yun Tian said seriously. He never had any intention to let Li Na go from his life.

His declaration makes Li Na startled! Actually, she is still Shen Yun Tian’s wife? Why? She already committed adultery. Why not divorce her? Li Na shakes her head in disbelief.

“You did not sign it? This is much better. Li Na truly put a green hat on you. Hahaha. That slut is so incredible,” Ru Feng laughs like a manic person.

“Stop it!” Shen Yun Tian’s tone was leaking with a threat. He doesn’t want to listen to how Ru Feng continues insulting Li Na.

As he hears his boss' words, a man puts tape on Ru Feng’s mouth to prevent him from talking.

“No matter what kind of woman Li Na was, you should have done what I told you to do. All the money and power I gave to you was for a reason, which was to take care of her! Make her the happiest woman. You failed me, Ru Feng,” Shen Yun Tian coldly gives the signal for his man to beat Ru Feng.

“Ughh..” Ru Feng chokes on a mouth full of blood since the tape prevents the blood from flowing out from his mouth. The beatings continue non stop. Each punch inflicts unbearable pain to Ru Feng.

Shen Yun Tian expressionlessly looks at how his man tortures Ru Feng. He wants to see more of Ru Feng’s blood.

As if the blood flow can wash away the fact that Li Na had already died.

Li Na looks at the frightful scene without batting her eyes. Since she was dead, looking at a real crime didn’t doesn't affect her anymore.

Li Na wants to see how far Shen Yun Tian can go for revenge of her death. She wants to carefully see his every movement whether it's cold or even cruel. Because everything he did is just for her.

She remembered the content of Ru Feng’s and Shen Yun Tian’s conversation. She cannot help but admit that she really was is a selfish and stupid woman.

She was truly a horrible woman and she deserved everything. She left with Ru Feng and the pure love she thought is in fact a disgusting infidelity.

After leaving the dead Ru Feng back in the old building, Shen Yun Tian asks his men to take care of the dead body and leave the scene.

In the car, Li Na doesn't dare to look at Shen Yun Tian. The guilty emotion overwhelms her. After reaching his home, Shen Yun Tian takes Li Na’s frozen body back into his room.

Li Na realizes that since he found her body, he would bring it anywhere he goes. He doesn't want to separate from her cold body even though it is soulless and damaged.

After putting her body back into his room, he continues looking at Li Na just like before except this time his eyes are more tired and weary.

“When things are not good for you, why are you not looking for me? When things are painful to you, why don't you search for me? I am still here waiting for you, Li Na,” Shen Yun Tian gently pats Li Na’s head, fearing that the hair would fall from her scalp.

Li Na let out a sobbing sound. How can she find him when she didn’t even think about him? From the beginning till the end, she never thought of nor remembered his existence. She never considered anything related to him. Nothing.

“Why can't you see me, Li Na?” Shen Yun Tian holds Li Na’s lifeless hand and softly kisses it. Li Na can see that even though he is still cold and expressionless, his trembling hand couldn't hide his real feelings.

Perhaps because of the continued strain pressing his head, Shen Yun Tian is more unguarded and his feelings are more exposed compared to the normal him. He grips his hand a bit and finally takes courage to put Li Na’s body right into his arms.

“I have made Ru Feng a mess. But perhaps you will be mad at me for hurting him,” Shen Yun Tian slowly whispers and snorts at himself. He knows how Li Na loved that man to death and that she had once screamed at him just for Ru Feng’s sake.

“He said you are selfish and he hated you for that. But for me it’s okay to be selfish. You have the right so please be selfish only in front of me. You can do anything you want. It's fine.”

Li Na cries as she hears his words, only this person asks her to do anything she wants.

The lifeless body in his arm is too cold and fragile. Shen Yun Tian wants to transfer his warmth to that body or perhaps even transfer his life if he can, but he couldn't.

“Li Na...Li Na...Li Na...” Shen Yun Tian continues calling her name nonstop. Only today he wishes to let go all of his control and show his real feelings.

Slowly he uses his hand to raise Li Na’s face and gently kisses those cold lips. Only when she died, he gain the courage to do that.

If Li Na was still alive maybe she would bite herself to death knowing that her lips were tainted with his breath.

Li Na was shocked. Her dead body is not even worth being called a body because it's so disgusting. How can Shen Yun Tian be able to touch and even kiss her? Doesn’t he find it repulsive?

Shen Yun Tian doesn't realize that at that moment tears fall from his eyes. The love hidden from deep in his heart is burdening him so he doesn’t know whether it’s sorrow or joy.

“Li Na, from the very first time I met you, I loved you,” He let go of her lips and embedded her body into his arm, while releasing a heavy breath full of undying and desperate love.

Li Na was only able to look at his actions. She cannot do anything. She tries to touch him but her body just passes through.

She was hoping to wipe his tears but in return, only her tears kept falling. “Stop it, Mr. Shen. Don't hold me anymore. I am a disgusting person. Horrible!”

She yells her heart out asking Shen Yun Tian to stop loving her but he can’t hear her. She felt miserable.

She didn't know that even the dead can feel the unbearable heartache. Li Na slowly moves closer to Shen Yun Tian. This lonely person is too pitiful.

“Uwaaa....waa.” She cries hard. This is too painful. She cannot hold this burden.

All of this makes her regret. She regrets choosing others. She regrets leaving him and regrets for the time she didn’t love him.

Li Na slowly puts her lips right on his lips. Even though they are not touching, Li Na still wants to feel him. Touch him. And love him.

‘If only there is a second chance in life, I would use it to love you’