#Chapter6

Shen Yun Tian comes inside the room without caring about his appearance. He grabs the scissor in Li Na’s hands and throws it away.

Before, as usual, he would look into the screens that monitored Li Na. Shen Yun Tian couldn’t help but think that today Li Na’s seems a bit unusual. He always sees the anger and desperation in those eyes but now her eyes are filled with sadness and sorrow.

Maybe he is the reason why Li Na shows that emotion. But Shen Yun Tian couldn’t let her go. No matter how she cried or yelled at him. It’s impossible.

When he sees how Li Na slaps herself hard, Shen Yun Tian feels the pain right on his own face. Why must she hurt herself? Does she want to be with Ru Feng to the extent of inflicting pain on herself?

Shen Yun Tian sighs. To see Li Na be with someone else would drive him crazy. The only one that can be with her is only himself. Even to the extent of imprisoning her. Or even letting himself being hated. It’s okay.

As he looks into the screen, the scenery makes Shen Yun Tian stumped. His eyes couldn’t help but stick to it.

It looks like Li Na just bathed and she was wiping her body. She looked so beautiful and enchanting. Those drops of water that outline her body makes it hard for him to breathe.

He knows that he needed to pull his eyes away to respect Li Na’s privacy but maybe this is the only chance for him to appreciate Li Na’s beauty.

Every move made Shen Yun Tian’s heart tremble hard. He wished to substitute the robe on Li Na’s body so he will be the one to embrace Li Na.

Shen Yun Tian notices how sometimes Li Na would smile. It gives him a sense of being teased but he is sure that Li Na couldn’t be able to identify the cameras he installed. Even if she had found the cameras, Li Na would immediately pull away all of them.

However, when he sees how Li Na looks at the scissors in her hand intently, Shen Yun Tian feels a sense of foreboding. Immediately he runs to her room when Li Na raises the scissors to her neck.

“What are you doing, Li Na?” Shen Yun Tian’s tone leaks with heavy pressure. Their close distance makes Li Na’s body tremble. His hot breath kept grazing near her ear made Li Na’s small body become hot.

Shen Yun Tian notices how Li Na shakes asif rejecting him. He remembered that she really hates his touch so he releases his hold and steps back to give some space for Li Na.

“Tell me, what do you want to do?” Shen Yun Tian stares at her. Since they have a huge difference in height, Li Na has to look up to see Shen Yun Tian’s face.

Li Na notices how strong his chest is compared to her own and it’s making him more dependable. From his chest, her eyes move to his throat that is moving up and down as he swallows his saliva.

Her eyes travel further to Shen Yun Tian’s face to trace it. She notices how young he is compared to the time she had died, but still there was a mature aura that was surrounding him. There were no more weary and tired eyes. Even the lonely aura he omitted before was not there.

All of his features now appease the disturbance in Li Na’s heart. Finally, she feels a sense of relief. Li Na couldn’t help but want to hold Shen Yun Tian. The frustration she kept in her heart before is still there so she wants to do what she wished before. Touch him. Feels him.

Shen Yun Tian noticed how Li Na just kept quiet and stared at him silently. Just as he is about to ask Li Na once more, suddenly Li Na tiptoed and pulled his neck down. She hugs him tightly.

The words that Shen Yun Tian prepared to ask suddenly disappear. He doesn’t know what to say. This is the first time Li Na voluntarily touches him and it makes him panic.

“Li Na?” He wants to ask her what happened but he feels wetness on his chest. Her trembling hand on his neck seems so small and vulnerable.

It’s normal for Li Na to scream and yell at him but the crying Li Na makes him clueless and feel at a loss of what to do. He doesn’t know how to deal with this situation.

Shen Yun Tian raises his hand but doesn’t know where to put it. If he puts it behind Li Na’s back, would she accept it?

After a few contemplations, Shen Yun Tian decides to drop it down. He didn’t dare to take the chance because he was afraid that doing more would only make her become angry. So he just stood there stiffly.

They are just standing there at the center of the room quietly as Shen Yun Tian waits for Li Na to calm down.

Tears uncontrollably flow out from Li Na’s eyes. Finally she is able to reach him. Feels him. As she expected, his body is so warm. Even though his atmosphere is so cold, the truth is that he gives out a gentle feeling.

Li Na’s finger can’t help but shake when she touched his skin. She tightens her hold on him and makes their bodies closer as she leaned on his chest.

After Li Na gained her composure back, she noticed how Shen Yun Tian’s muscles became more tense the longer she stayed in his arms.

Slowly she looks up and sees his face. Shen Yun Tian’s face was filled with tension as she observed him.

Does holding her make him angry? Does he think that she is weird? Li Na starts feeling self-conscious.

Slowly she lets go of her hold, “I am sorry, Mr. Shen.” Her frame slouched forward under Shen Yun Tian’s gaze.

Seeing her action only makes Shen Yun Tian frown deeper. Why did she act like this? She is not someone that would openly apologize especially to someone like him.

“I repeat, what were you going to do just before, Li Na?” He still remembers how Li Na hurts herself. And now, she is crying. What is she planning? He wants to know everything about her, even her inner thoughts.

“I..” Li Na doesn’t know what to say. How can she say that because she wanted to see him so she did that? It will only make Shen Yun Tian strangely look at her.

Her eyes wildly looked around the room in search for something to say and finally focused on the scissors that he had thrown away before. An idea flashed in her mind.

Li Na moves away from Shen Yun Tian and takes the scissors. She confidently raised it near her neck and showed a gesture. “Look, I just want to cut my hair. What do you think I would do, Mr. Shen?” She innocently asks him.

The answer didn't ease Shen Yun Tian’s pressure. “Don’t cut it by yourself, I will ask for a stylist for you.”. He takes the scissors from Li Na’s hand.

Even if Li Na really doesn’t have any bad thoughts, he wouldn’t let any sharp objects stay around her. After this, all the attendants will be reminded of this.

“No! I don’t want a stranger to cut my hair!” Li Na expresses her unwillingness by shaking her head. Her spoiled eyes look at Shen Yun Tian.

Shen Yun Tian frowns. Is Li Na insisting to cut her hair so she can harm herself even more? A heavy pressure starts leaking from him.

“Then, what do you want?” He sharpens his gaze and stares right into Li Na’s eyes. This makes her get scared under his gaze. She clenched her hand. Since she wants to approach him, she wouldn’t be afraid of him.

But the thing is, she never had never stayed under his eyes so she is not able to keep her composure. At the time she was dead, she only lingered around as a spirit but being an actual person in front of him is different compared to being an invisible spirit.

Li Na musters her courage to approach Shen Yun Tian. Her hand trembles while handing the scissors right into his hand. “If I can’t cut my own hair, you cut it for me.”

Once she finishes uttering her request, Li Na notices how his hand quivers. Li Na perceives that once more Shen Yun Tian becomes stiff.

Shen Yun Tian is a really awkward person. As he doesn’t know what to do or say, he will show an emotionless expression.

And somehow a low pressure would be released resulting in people avoiding him including Li Na herself. This is the reason why she never noticed his feelings.

That's why she interpreted all of his actions as only a way to control and dominate her.

“Me?” He asks in disbelief. Li Na knows that she never let him touch her before. But now to offer her own hair looks like she is asking for him to caress her. Even Li Na herself feels embarrassed to say that.

But she wouldn’t back away. “Yes. Mr. Shen, please help me.” Li Na takes the initiative to pull his hand to the chair and sits with her back in front of him.

She nervously waits for his hand to reach for her hair. And after she feels his touch, Li Na finally calms down.

As Li Na feels Shen Yun Tian’s hand moves just like she wants, she slowly closes her eyes. She enjoys the way he cared for her, as his movements are gentle and slow, afraid to hurt her.

Their close distance reminds Li Na about the warmth that she missed. The memory of Shen Yun Tian hugging her while calling her name brought tears to her eyes.

“It’s done.” He said just after he finished trimming her last wild hair. Li Na turns her body and hugs Shen Yun Tian.

“Mr. Shen...Mr. Shen...Mr. Shen...” She calls his name just like how he called her name before. This time Li Na feels her hug be reciprocated. Shen Yun Tian slowly pats her back.

Li Na looks up with her teary eyes. “I will not leave you,” She promised him. This time she will not be foolish like in her past life.