I also park in front of this hotel and quickly get out of the car and enter the lobby. I don't see him anywhere yet it is his car that is parked there in front. I pull out my phone, my heart shaking, I call her again and nothing. I call Emmy

Me: I'm sorry, come and find me here at the PRIVILEGE hotel, it's right next to where you are.

Emmy: Are you crazy? It's you I'm waiting for here and you tell me to meet you I don't know where.

Me: Come first sorry, it's urgent, very urgent.

I hang up I don't want to talk too much. What is William doing here? If it was a business meeting he would be down here. I head to reception.

Me: Hello excuse me the restaurant of the hotel is on which side?

The gentleman shows me, it's always where I am there but William is not there. Hmm what is the guy looking for here? I want to ask the guy but I change my mind. If he is with a woman they might confuse me.

I go out, I decide to wait outside. My heart beats, tears burn my eyes, pity not that. I pray to heaven it's not what I think. William is so perfect, he can't do this to me, he can't be like all men. Not him. Emmy arrives, I see her coming up the stairs, she walks towards me with a questioning eye.

Emmy: What's up Ashley? What are you doing here ? What's going on, you're scaring me.

Me: Come on, let's go out, I don't want to freak out here.

I leave, Emmy following me looking bewildered. I reach for William's car, holding back a sob.

Emmy: Yes it's William's car but I don't understand, you came together?

Me: NOOO, I was coming to find you and I saw his car, he stopped in front of this hotel and disappeared. He is nowhere.

Emily: What?

Me: Yes Emmy, you think he's with a woman right? Otherwise what is he doing here?

Emmy: Not necessarily you too Ashley. Maybe he has a business meeting.

Me: Business meeting in a hotel room? The hotel restaurant is down there and he is not there.

Emmy: Have you tried calling her?

Me: Yes precisely, I called him 1000 times he does not take, that's what is even more fishy.

Emmy: Come on, let's go home, you'll wait for him at home and ask him for an explanation.

What me ??? No, go where? I won't move from here, he will come out and find me here. If it was Taylor (Emmy's boyfriend) were you going to leave?

Even Emmy is overwhelmed, she doesn't know what to say anymore. I sit on the steps of the hotel. My chest hurts too much.

Me: Emmy, I'm too scared of what I'm going to discover but I'm going to wait for it to come out so I can be sure. If the case that I often hear has to happen to me, I'm going to wait here, I'm not moving from there.

Emmy first sat next to me, I felt she regretted bringing me there.

Emmy: Alright, in that case you come, we'll sit in the little snack bar across the street. We mustn't come and hunt us here.

I follow her without a word, we go sit in the snack bar opposite, he can't leave without us seeing him. We sit down, Emmy orders juice.

Emmy: Do you think it's wise to stay here. Let's say he's with a woman, if they get out of there what are you going to do? Show you here in the middle of a crossroads like that? And if he is with a business partner it will show it. It's true that I'm not in your shoes, but I don't think it's a good idea.

Me: Whether it's a good idea or not I don't care, I'm going to marry this man, I have unprotected sex with this man, I live with this man so everything he does concerns me. If you don't want to stay you can leave but spare me your advice there please.

Emmy only shut her mouth, she herself knew she had no argument.

The wait was endless, 1h, 2h, 3h, 4h… hum!!! The night found us there. So Emmy wanted to tell me that he was doing business in a hotel room the whole time.

With each hour that passed my heart broke a little more. I was sure now, William was cheating on me with another. Lord God! The man of my life, we are not even married yet, is he already tired of me?

What didn't I do for him? When was he in a relationship? We were almost always the two of us. What has my darling William Mendsa been doing in a hotel room for more than 4 hours and with whom???

Hey God sorry don't do this to me. While I was praying like that I see the good man coming out of the hotel with a girl!!! My heart stopped beating. I quickly got up before he got into the car. Emmy followed me.

Me: William!!! Who is she ???

He turned to me in slow motion and I saw the blood drain from his face. My last hope crumbled. I thought he was going to give me a reason, that it was his aunt, his sister, anyone, anything but that.

William: What, what are you doing here? But say don't, you're with Emmy.

Me: Did I ask you a question? Who is this girl you just spent 4 hours with in a hotel room William!!!!

Hmmm people started looking at us. The girl was no stress, she even crossed her arms like make your little movie there you go. An ugly girl even, so that's what he was cheating on me with? Lord God why are men like this?

William: Please go home, I'll explain everything to you.

Me: Explain to me what William ??? Explain to me what? Explain yourself here in front of her. Is that what you do? Is this how you want to marry me? Is that what you're cheating on me with?

The girl there turned to me, pointing at me. She had an extra wedding ring.

— This bitch hits me and you say come in???

William: Please come in, we're on our way, she's my wife.

— Oh yes !! Your wife !! And me ?

— Sorry, do your things without insulting me, do you know who I am? Anything.

Neither one nor two I dived on it zaaakk !! I slapped her wildly, she wanted to return, Emmy was already taking off her earrings. William stopped him and pushed him firmly.

William: Go home Mireille don't exaggerate, please go home!!!! Go home !!!

She wanted to hear then? She ran towards me, William belted her. Emmy also couldn't take it anymore. She punched the girl there, huh, I didn't understand myself.

Emmy: Shut the fuck up, who do you think you are? You leave the hotel with someone else's husband and you yell? Besides, you're a married woman. We're going to get your slutty husband! You will pay dearly for this.

The girl right there understood that it was not her level, she grabbed her cheek. She let herself be driven by William who quickly threw her into a taxi without even giving her destination. I was shaking in all my limbs, I was breathing hard like a boxer, I was going to go crazy.

People had already surrounded us. At the time, I didn't understand that. The good gentleman approached me gently, he was ashamed!!! Oh my God how do men like to soil themselves like that?

William: Let's go home, Ashley. We are at the crossroads, look how people look at us….

I gave him a big slap before he finished his sentence.

Me: So you're ashamed too? When you come to fuck a whore in a hotel is it to be ashamed afterwards? So is that how you are? You also ?

I was screaming, my voice cracked, I couldn't take it anymore. William watched me shed big tears. Emmy took me firmly by the shoulders.

Emmy: Come on Ashley, let's get out of here, it's not even worth it.

Emmy had my purse, she pulled out my car keys and drove. I was in no condition to drive. I was devastated. I know that men are all the same as they say here but I think those who have experienced such a scene understand me.

I may be naive but William was so perfect and in love with me, I could never imagine he would do this to me, my God. What am I not giving him? What am I not doing to her?

Every night when he asks me to release, I always take good care of him, I have never cheated on him, did I deserve this? I was just screaming, I couldn't stop myself. All my plans with this man, dowry, marriage, children. What was I going to do now, I even wanted to jump out the window.

Emmy blocked the doors like she read my mind. At that moment, I couldn't help but laugh. So she was afraid that I would open the door to hover outside? I laughed.

I laughed while crying, I cry I stop to laugh, I laugh I cry. The madness had begun. There was something, my life was over at that precise moment. Emmy accompanied me home, she stayed with me, consoled me as best she could. She served me food.

Friends are necessary but was I even hungry? She tried to talk to me, tell me to rest, that tomorrow I was going to see things more clearly and that there I was going to decide what I wanted to do. I didn't want to stay in this house that's what I wanted to do.

Emmy: You can come and sleep at my house if you want, you know I can take good care of you. I'm here darling I'll be fine.

Me: Why did he do this to me Emmy? Haven't I always taken good care of him? If that's the sex he wants don't I give it to him? I've always been real with him and you yourself know it. Did I deserve this?

Emmy: I know sweetie, you know men are like that, women too. Sometimes we do crazy things because we don't think carefully about the consequences. Please don't take this as the end of the world. He loves you that's for sure. I know now is not the time to tell you that because what he did is unforgivable.

Me: Yes you are right my darling, now is not the time. What he did the... he knows what I've been through in the past. He swore to me that he would never make me experience anything like that again. How do you expect me to live with him knowing that? You know how whole I am, I...I...

Tears broke my voice. I kept crying, my words were almost inaudible.

Emmy: I know how you feel, you don't need to talk.

Me: it's going to be fine my darling, I'm going to hold on. You can go, you did your best for me. Go ahead and then it will help me to be alone and allow me to think.

Emily: Are you sure?

Me: Yeah, don't worry, you'll be fine. If it's hot, I'll come to your house.

Emmy: Well, don't even hesitate. Come home if there's any worries, okay?

She hugged me and left. When she came out, I first properly barricaded the door. I didn't even want to smell the guy or I was going to commit murder. I didn't even have any more tears to cry. My eyes were swollen.

How was I going to do? How was I going to handle this situation? I never wanted to see him again but there I was at his place. At this thought, rage overwhelmed me and I began to pack my bags. I had to leave.

I'm not going to stand around being run over by a man like an Ashley with no family because I live under his roof. I'm leaving here but where? At Emmy's? At my father's place? To be honest, I needed to be alone. I didn't need any opinions or advice. I wanted to clear my head.

At that moment, I heard knocking on the door. I wonder why he didn't go I don't know where to continue his things with his bitch. But I had forgotten that it was his house and I was at his house, where was he going?

While I was struggling resisting Wesley's temptation, he was bathing between another woman's legs. He disgusted me, I never wanted to see him again. He started pounding on the door.

— Ashley!! Ashley!!!! Open the door please.

His voice was weird, it sounded like he was drunk, he was pounding on the door nonstop. I heard the neighbors door open. Sorry too much display for today I went to open. I was packing my suitcase anyway. I couldn't stay in the same house as him.

When I saw him on the doorstep I felt sorry for him. Hey God, despite all that I felt sorry for him. Did he take pity on me? His glasses were askew, his eyes red and swollen, his nose was even running. He was in very poor condition. Worse than myself the victim.

I turned on my heels without a word, I didn't even have the strength to speak. He followed me into the bedroom. I tossed a few dresses into my large purse.

William: What are you doing Ashley, please don't do this.

His voice more than his words broke my heart, he was in a pitiful state. Her tears beaded on my face but I couldn't stay there any longer, I had to leave. I was going to come back later for the rest of my business.

I walked towards the exit without looking at him. He stood in front of the door and blocked my way, that's where he underestimated me, he was joking badly. A fight broke out there.

Me: Let me through, get out of my way. You bastard, fuck you you hear me? You are nothing to me anymore.

William: I'm begging you Ashley don't go. If you want I'm leaving I'll leave you the house but I beg you don't go out like that it's almost 1am.

Me: Does my well-being matter to you today? What could happen to me worse than what you just did to me there William?

William: Honey, I'm so sorry.

When he said his darling there my blood did a turn.

Me: Me, honey? Don't you ever dare call me your honey again. Call me bitch, call me silly, call me bitch, call me bastard, whatever you want except honey.

He started to cry, I had never seen him like that. Hey my God, was it me who was going to take pity on him again? I couldn't bear to see him like that anymore.

William: Don't say that. Please, please, I love you, I don't know what got into me. I'm disgusting, I know but don't go I'm nothing without you.

By the time I open my mouth, he's on his knees, his hands tied in a plea.

William: Forgive me Ashley please. I'll give you as much time as you want, but don't leave me. Don't leave our house, I'm going to the hotel if you want.

Me: Yes to find your bitch and finish what you started right?

William: Please Ashley, look at me, look at how I disgust myself.

The men with the honeyed mouth but my case could not happen like that there. I don't forgive that.

Me: No William, I need to get out of this house, I need to find myself, I can't stay here with you. You promised me... you... you...

As I was talking, I smelled that cheap bitch's perfume on him. He reeked of alcohol and He suddenly got up and ran away. I heard him throw up in the toilet, what unexpected luck. I ran out.

Barely at the bottom of the stairs, I heard him coming down the stairs after me. Before he arrived I was already in the car, doors locked. I took one last look at him, it hurt a lot but I had to go from there.

I drove to the HEAVEN hotel, I was going to stay there until I put my thoughts in order and decided what I wanted to do. I didn't cry anymore that night. I was tired. I only collapsed on the bed after turning off my phone.

The next day, Sunday, I woke up, my eyes were very swollen. Fortunately, I had taken my sunglasses. I wasn't even hungry, so I stayed in the bedroom watching TV.

Around noon I turned on my cell phone a bit, at least 20 texts from William. His missed calls and Emmy's. Voice messages like :

« Sweet come back please»

« I want to die, I'm going to throw myself out the window »

« You are the love of my life »

While I was even listening to the voicemails, he called me on a double call. I threw it on the answering machine first and called Emmy who worried all night. Unable to reach me, William went to saturate Emmy's line to find out where I am.

Emmy: Um, where are you? William has been saturating my line since that morning, I already told him that I don't know where you are.

Me: I'm at the hotel, I needed to be alone a bit to digest all this. Tell him you don't know where I am. I don't want to see him at all, I don't even want to hear his voice.

Emmy: Ok you're right, he doesn't think life is easy like that. That he first harvests a little but does not go far with him. Try to forgive him.

Me: Forgive him? Trust me, Emmy, he'll endure forever, I'm dead serious.

Emmy: Girlfriend, sorry, leave the movie stuff to us, huh. Anyway, I know you need time for yourself, so I'm not going to bother you with the speeches. He called your dad. Apparently your darling alerted the population.

Me: So there! He did strong. So he's not even ashamed of what he did to his daughter? Anyway, I'll call him as soon as I hang up with you. I'm at HEAVEN you can come by if you have some time.

Emmy: A little time? Leave that to me, I'll be right there.

Me: It works for everyone.

After hanging up with Emmy, I called my dad to just tell him we got a little upset and he shouldn't worry, that I was dealing with it. He still asked me where I was and said that in marriage we did not leave the marital home at the slightest problem.

I was very upset, I only told him that I would remember it on the day I was going to get married. He himself understood that at this time I was a big girl. I told him again not to worry and that I was going to come see him to talk. If I didn't say that, the father wasn't going to leave me.

Emmy arrived around noon, she brought me a braised chicken that I didn't even eat, I had no appetite. We spent the day by the pool, I told him the scene after he left the night before.

Emmy: So it was hot there like that?

Me: I tell you. The neighbors had echoes of the day.

Emmy: Yesterday I was more surprised than anything. And then you saw the girl there? Frankly, it's even insulting. They say you don't insult God's creatures, but that girl overdid it. Not even a little beautiful.

Me: I'm telling you, if she was at least a little beautiful I was going to say to myself that even I couldn't have resisted, but this kind of thing means that he even cheated on me out of pleasure.

Emmy: Beauty is relative, maybe it's her part of Beyoncé or Angelina Jolie there.

Me: I wonder what she looks like today with the side you stretched her yesterday.

We both burst out laughing for long seconds.

Me: I tell you, me even you have me wanda huh! So I often attack you like that you have this kind of punch in reserve? Until removing the loops.

Emmy: Weeeee!! My girlfriend leave me like this. Yesterday, when she extended her mouth to speak, I vibrated like the first nokia. I had to ring someone.

We still laughed until. I spent the whole day laughing with Emmy, she got the dirty story out of my head. When I was driving her home, there is a young gigolo guy who asked us if he offered us a drink. The insults I threw at him before prancing around and going out, huh. Sure he will never accost a woman again after that.

Emmy and I left at 10 p.m. I made him promise not to tell William where I was, to let me handle it as I wanted. She told me that I could trust her. We kissed and she left.

It was when I found myself alone in my room that I thought about all this. I had become pragmatic again, only one of my tears would no longer flow for this thug. I left my phone in the bedroom. The number of missed calls, William hadn't seen anything yet.

Men do this to women and they digest it because they are thirsty for marriage, I wasn't into it yet. I turned off my phone, checked to see if I had anything to wear for work tomorrow.

It was good, Emmy's mockery of this bitch came back to my mind and it made me smile a little « That they say that we don't insult the creatures of God, huh, but that girl over there exaggerated. That not even a little beautiful. »

Especially when she said that "That's her part of Beyoncé or Angelina jolie over there" I burst out laughing to myself. I showered and went to sleep immediately so as not to waste time moping.

To be continued......