#Chapter6 Cierren Forest

after drying my hair ,i didn’t actually know what next to do ..

it was quite boring with not having anything to do for school anymore .

i told Jongin I’ll get a job because that’s what people are supposed to do but he always told me it’s not needed and it will just tire me out and take more time of the day .

of course i wouldn’t listen to him .but i should have known that he would start sabotaging my job to get me fired whenever i got a new one .

So i guess i gave up on trying, i should call myself lucky i have a wolf boyfriend who buys me everything i want I know ...

but i'm not really that kind of person ..

it makes me feel like some of those girls who sell themselves to some sugar daddies .. and i don’t want to be that person . i know no one thinks of me like that .. well i hope they don’t. But my point is I don’t want to be the pen to life of others cost here. I know its Jongin but still and on top of that i have literally nothing to do than cook for the pack now and then .

i just want to be of some use too and cleaning and cooking all the time was kind of the only thing i can do for now.

so i guess that’s why i decided to go downstairs to the kitchen just to look for what i will cook later .

i was going to put on Jongin’s pullover like always but he seems a little angry ..

i should ask him about this too .

i did .. however , not expect to hear laughter as soon as i leave my room .

"shut up !"

i heard a yell but from my side and i glanced to the side to see Chanyeol walk out of his room with an action figure .

he looked right back at me widening his eyes provoke as if to say what the hell are you staring at, before looking annoyed away and walking past me.

i swallowed closing the door before i followed him downstairs .

releasing a half breath as i looked down onto a girl sitting on the couc- no laying on the couch with her head in Jongin’s lap and he was smiling at her ... this is how he’s supposed to smile at me .. why would he smile at her like that ?

kris was beside them on the ground and seemed to be having fun as well and now Chanyeol joined laughing as he showed the action figure .

"see i told you , unlike you i care for my treasures "

god damn Chan i was a babygirl stupid and nerdy "she chuckled adjusting her head in Jongin’s lap as he helped her pulling her hair away from under her neck to hang down on the other side of his lap .

i was too caught up with the rage that i felt in my entire body

to react when her eyes suddenly landed on me .

i shifted uncomfortable about to go upstairs again but she opened her mouth faster

"oh, who's that ?"

i ignored her walking the rest of the steps upstairs not wanting to get any attention at all . but before i could enter mine and Jongin’s room, he already appeared stopping me by holding my arm.

stupid wolfs and speed and powers .

i flinched back looking into his eyes with my wide once .

i don’t know why i was acting this way but i felt angry , mad yet sad and broken ..

Kyung-"

"what ? "I just cut him off not really wanting to know what this was all about. Maybe that's why he wouldn't go for me in the shower...

we have 2 guests-"

"i could see the first one "i chuckled breathy grabbing the handle to the door again but his hand landed on mine

"i know this looke-"

"oh no no don’t worry about it, i'm just gonna lay down don’t bother me ok, just continue having fun with her and your pack because clearly it seems like she’s fitting in way better than me!" i can’t believe i got louder but the anger just slipped and overpowered all other emotions i felt .

it made me overreact and i couldn’t do anything about it.

why would you say all those things we were just laughing you barely met he-"

"obviously i don’t want to !"

"would you just let me speak !?"

i flinched back my hand out of his and he sighed taking a breath before starting again as we now faced each other .

i'm sorry "he muttered out barely audible. But a sorry didn't make me feel better. I know I was overreacting probably but I just .. I just did I can't stop it .

me too "now finally i opened the door slamming it behind me .

i got besides it and sat down holding my burning stomach in both my hands, it was no longer a weird nice burning . It was snow bothersome.

I trusted Jongin . And it was in fact probably nothing but the fact that she could laugh with everyone when she was only here like for a day or idk when she came .while I've been here for a year and everyone still hated me

It wasn't fair , how she could lay on his lap so confidently with everyone around . I always wished I could to that . I guess I was just jealous.

feeling stupid i just sat there holding my stomach as i tried to listen maybe he would come in and apologize first so i can do too ..

but he didn’t came and i don’t know why it made me feel so sad .i had originally planned on going to get down to talk and make up cuddle with him after what happened in the shower .. but instead i made it worse .who's that stupid girl anyway ? why would she lay on his lap can’t they smell if one of them is already mated ??.

I trusted Jongin . And it was in fact probably nothing but the fact that she could laugh with everyone when she was only here like for a day or idk when she came .while I've been here for a year and everyone still hated me

It wasn't fair , how she could lay on his lap so confidently with everyone around . I always wished I could to that . I guess I was just jealous.

And what are they doing now ?

fiddling way too long with my fingers on my stomach i finally got to my feet and to the door opening it softly because wolfs can’t listen that carefully if they don’t intend or are busy.

so i had the door slightly agape listening carefully .

he's not back yet .. but i wanted to go on a run and get some fresh air"

she sounded like she was pouting and i didn’t like it .. i didn’t like her .

Jongiii can you please go on a run with me then "

it was quiet and i listened closely awaking for his answer. there’s no way he would say yes and leave me here without asking me again .especially not after a fight .. kind of argument i mean. we couldn’t argue for long at all the longest argument we had was like 4 hours long .

yaayy "she suddenly cheered but i just looked down backing away from the door and whipping over my eyes . i'm overreacting again but i can’t stop myself .. i felt stupid

And not good enough all of a sudden .

since when was she here ? probably even before i woke up, that’s why he acted that way when we were in the shower

the front door closed and i felt a tear slip down my cheek . no .. why am i so emotional .

angrily i whipped over my cheeks and my eyes as i stood up still holding my stomach .. maybe i was just hungry that’s why it felt like it was burning .

i exit the room again walking towards the stairs and stepping them down rather slowly i was still thinking of the girl and how long has she could’ve been here ? Why were they so comfortable around her? Maybe they already thought about replacing me with her and I'm sure everyone would love that only Jongin had to be convinced and I pissed him off earlier.. What if they do throw me out ? I had nowhere to go I would be all alone again. Jongin would never do that to me.

look who’s here "Chanyeol chuckled and i only now noticed that i was in the kitchen and he sat on the table eating some toast .

i ignored him opening the fridge because i couldn’t take that burning sensation anymore . so i looked around but didn’t spot anything i would feel like eating. i closed it again feeling disappointed in a way .

that’s until i heard a few pressed back chuckles an i turned around to see Sehun being here as well .

i wasn’t stupid , i knew they were laughing about me

"looking for something to eat ?"

Chanyeol continued but i was just not having it .. not now, i had enough to deal with now . I was already feeling so emotionally unstable and only those few words had started making me so angry that i even glared at him when i turned back around .

woah "Sehun laughed looking from me back to Chanyeol who laughed with him "watch it Chan the humans angry "

what’s your problem ? "now they stopped just looking at me probably not at all expecting this .

"no seriously .. tell me because i'm really curious . is it really just because i'm human ? "

they both still frowned at me being caught off guard. until kris entered as well grabbing an apple and biting into it before looking at me

"you’re not fitting in .. that’s why .you're like a wrong puzzle piece pressed into the empty space of another "

but why ?"i glanced at him and he looked over at Chanyeol ."why can’t i fit in !? i'm doing everything i can ok i'm trying, I'm not exactly rude to either of you I've always talked nicely to you all and tried my best to contact with you at first but you all obviously don't want, i can’t change the fact that i'm human ok i can’t change myself into a wolf but i really love Jongin and i can’t keep doing this we all can’t "

there is no-!"Sehun started with a loud voice as well but stopped once Chanyeol poked him with his elbow .

look .. Kyungsoo .. this isn’t personal or anything and we know that you can’t change the fact that you're human we don’t blame you for that but we blame you for being in our pack while knowing that you're holding us back from becoming stronger since Jongin doesn’t want to become stronger than he already is .. because he doesn’t want to hurt your little body"

obviously because you’re the weak little shit in this pack that everyone needs to fake care of "he explained obvious and i instantly shot back

"that’s not true !"

we want to become stronger with Jongin but your just holding us all back "Sehun said as well .

but i'm not even doing anything ! that’s not fair you are all just judging me, what am i supposed to do !? we all know me leaving wouldn’t exactly help you. i know it’s hard and not possible for you to understand or to believe that Jongin loves me too. but that doesn’t change the fact that he does !"i defended angrily hitting my chest with my index finger to clarify myself , i don’t even care that i had to glare up to them due to the height difference , or the fact that i was tempering 2 werewolf’s right in front of me .. any sane person wouldn’t dare raise a word on them knowing they could rip me apart in seconds .

yet i didn’t care all i felt was the rage, the anger that i have been hiding so long inside, letting it grow and grow whenever they even uttered a word against me being with Jongin .and now i released it from its cage .

a silence that felt like a minute had past where i was just glaring at them .Sehun having a blank face while Chanyeol rose an eyebrow .

until the first broke and a chuckle turning into a laughter escaped Sehun’s lips , Chanyeol as well as he leaned forward holding his stomach .

my glare faded and my finger slowly dropped as i glanced at them.

"that’s kinda cute "Sehun whipped a fake tear away from his cheeks steadying himself on Chanyeol’s shoulder who only sighed amused

"yes yes .. it is .. "

fuck you "

it just slipped and i had to say i was surprised myself at how deep and strong it sounded so serious yet sharp that i had to ask myself if i really had said that .i was never a fan of cursing . they knew that too and their smiles fades as they stared back at me .

i don’t think they heard me cursing like ever.

somehow regretting like the little wimp i have become i just turned around towards the door just wanting to escape and hide under my blanket to wait for Jongin , but they thought differently when they grabbed my shirt and pulled me back only to spin me around and slam me into the wall .

Chanyeol’s hand had now a tight grip on the collar of my pullover as i stared up with wide eyes into his glare.

"you think you're so tough don’t you ? "

I was quiet as he said that not knowing how to answer . i hated the fact that i was actually terrified right now and couldn’t manage to hide it one bit, my past self would be laughing at me pathetic being right now. Chanyeol was currently the second tallest right after kris and i was the shortest. so he was practically a giant compared to me.

"if you could just look at you right now "he chuckled then letting me go and suck in a breath while still watching him as he turned to Sehun

come on Chan calm , he just has a big mouth, what did you expect from a human except for weakness "This was just tempering me all over again .but what for ?talking to them ,defending myself it was useless yet i felt the urge to do it all over again no matter how long it would take

"i'm not weak "

yeah sur-"

"proof it "Chanyeol cut him off with a hand onto Sehun’s chest to stop him from rambling on about how useless humans are .

I stared back into this giants eyes only showing how cold i could make them look like as if i hadn’t been pushed up against the wall in fright.

"last week .. I Lost my bracelet in the cierren forest, it was very important to me-"

"Chan-.."Sehun frowned but that wouldn’t stop him from continuing after he had silenced him again

"bring it back to me, then come talk to me again about being weak"

Cierren forest .. I heard of it before .

People who came out traumatized or disappeared stories that no one wanted to hear 2 times .. What on earth was Chanyeol doing there.

It made me swallow hard. they didn’t know who i was .how i used to be .the old me that i hated .

Because even though Chan would surely have me dead in a few minutes , i could still fight back and if it were still the old me the fight would have ended in both of them dead .

But i didn’t want to bring out the old me again and even if i could i don’t think that even then i would actually have a chance to find a stupid bracelet in a death forest ...

A low chuckle escaped Chanyeol as he past me by hitting my shoulder and i hated the fact that it was hard enough to make me fall .

Even when i sat there on the ground looking down as he was satisfied that i looked weak .. Am weak . Sehun formed his lips into a thin line shrugging his shoulders

"you shouldn’t think about this , you wouldn’t survive a minute there kiddo "Kris who had been silently watching the whole time advised me .

They don’t know me and what i'm capable of .