#Chapter2 Hated

My eyes opened slowly blinking

a few times as i tried to stretch myself but i couldn’t .

Jongin’s strong arms had me tight in his grip. he almost squeezed me with my back against his chest .

Jongin.. "i whined with a small smile, this wasn’t the first time he did this. he didn’t respond and i knew he was fake sleeping he always does that because he doesn’t need as much sleep as me..

a wolf doesn’t need as much sleep as a human .. 

Jongin !"i raised my voice a little  pushing myself away .

let’s just lay a little "he whispered against my hair

you're lazy "i whispered back turning with hard work around to face his chest.

kissing his bare collar bones because he always sleeps shirtless, i noticed my bottom lip hurting a little but i ignored it. I had to admit though .. i didn’t mind laying like this longer .

that’s until he suddenly groaned and i frowned .he finally loosened his grip and i backed up a little looking at him .

they're calling .. "he answered my unspoken question .and i rolled my eyes smiling as he just stood up not giving me another look .

i wanted to stand up as well but as soon as i got to my feet i felt a sharp pain going through my back and bottom . i tried hard not to cry out but that didn’t change the fact that it hurt so bad, i had to steady myself with one of my hands on the night table ,the other holding my back .

Kyungsoo "Jongin was instantly at my side ...

oh right ..

the bound we had made. he sensed if i was in pain which was pretty unfair because i couldn’t sense if he was in pain at all since i'm a fucking useless human.

what’s wrong ?"he asked me worried and i looked up at him as he steadied me

i hurt you last night , didn’t i ?"he looked guilty. hurt even as he glanced over me

n-no don’t worry i'm fine it’s not your fault that i'm just human "i smiled playing it off. it really wasn’t his fault and i don’t want him to blame himself .besides that it wasn’t even that bad. I’ve had worse .

i like you the way you are "he pouted sadly at me and i kissed his pout. looking into his eyes .

i'm fine Jongin "straightening myself i stood right clearing my throat while i smiled at him .i knew what this was about again

he only sighed "i sensed you’re pain, that wasn’t fine ..

roll up the pullover "

Jongin we're having breakfast we cannot do the mating before that "i joked trying to change the topic but he shock his head chuckling weakly.

not because of that "his hands gently moved to the edge of the oversized pullover pulling it up slightly, his face turned blank as he swallowed seeming in thoughts .and i dared to look down as well .

my eyes saddened as i saw the purple blue marks decorating my skin on the sides of my torso ..

traces of fingers could be seen .

Jongin.. "i removed his hands from the pullover to let it fall back down . i held his hands in mine and he looked sad into my eyes .

i smiled at him though leaning up i pressed a kiss onto his lips. which he didn’t quite return

"you have no idea how scared i am "he whispered and i didn’t have to ask of what he was scared of because it was obvious.

you have no idea how happy i am Jongin "i smiled .

"i. am. fine ..

those are just some small bruises . they won’t kill me and i provoked Kai so it’s my own fault." I told him.

what if .. what if i hurt you too bad someday or even kill you"

that wont happen "i assured him "you’re overreacting ..i'm just having backpain that happens to a lot of couples ok ... "

he looked down sighing but i kissed his nose to tease him and he smiled slightly before closing his eyes in annoyance .making me chuckle.

they're calling we should go down"

he nodded and handed me some pants before wearing some himself . i took a few steps to the door really trying to play my pain off but he of course sensed it and picked me up bridal style

Jongin !"i scolded him as he started walking ."what will they think ??"

i don’t care "he chuckled and i just smiled leaning into him as we walked down and entered the living room .

They already sat on the table. Chanyeol was arguing with Sehun about something i never understood because when they argue .. they sometimes don’t use words they use growls and howls .

they quiet down after Jongin growls loudly and sets me down onto the chair . i smile at them nervously as i felt some of them looking at me with a look full of annoyance.

they don’t like me and i got that . but i don’t know what to do for them to like me .. for them to at least accept me as a friend if not family . Jongin doesn’t know that they don’t like me and i'm not planning on telling him .they are always busy with other packs challenging them or wanting to join this pack . so he didn’t really have a chance to see them ..

hate me .

À lot of other packs had already visited this place and offered the daughters of the alphas or betas to mate with Jongin for that they could form a bigger pack but Jongin never agreed thankfully even before he met me he never agreed . I guess he liked keeping his pack small and trusted .

Also the whole territory fight wasn't really as important to them as people might read in books . In fact only few wolves really cared for their territories. Rogues still existed though..

Rogues where wolf who got taken over by anger or grief , they turned into blood thirsty creatures not caring for anything else than the kill , which was what made them so dangerous .

the point is .. Jongin told me that his pack was like a family to him and i didn’t want to come between Them so if i can’t be a pack member then i at least try to befriend them right ? .

there were 4 members .

kris Sehun Chanyeol

and of course Jongin .. the alpha all the others are betas because apparently a werewolf is only an omega when he hasn’t matured enough . so basically all the kids are omegas, Sehun too since he’s not 18 yet

hey .. "Jongin soft voice appeared behind me .

after we ate everyone was just kinda spreading around the house .

Sehun was out .letting his wolf have a little run and Chanyeol was upstairs in his room probably listening to music while reading and kris was actually still on the table drawing something into his little book .

i sat on the couch and watched tv with a hot-water bottle behind my back surrounded by pillows as I let the warmth of the water bottle sooth my back pain .. great .

hey "i turned to him .

Sehun ran into something again.. i'm gonna see what he’s doing now .."he rolled his eyes, continuing with a sigh "you'll be fine right ?"no ... please don’t leave.. i hate when he leaves. I don't like being left alone with them .

yeah don’t worry "oh god ..

he kissed my forehead before he walked towards the door shifting as the door closes behind him .

why shouldn’t you be fine ?"kris voice came from the other side of the room and i turned my head towards him . what should i say ?

does he now think we're gonna hurt you as well "

"no !.. no he would never think that . you're his family "

he sighed also looking at me but with that expression full of hate and it made me look down in shame .why do i have to be a human ? if i were a wolf just like them then they wouldn’t hate me and Jongin wouldn’t be fighting with his wolf to hold back all the time because then i wouldn’t be so fragile anymore .

yes exactly .we are his family so what the hell are you still doing here ? "

i sigh at that getting up from the couch i walked closer to the table .taking short steps as my back still hurt luckily Jongin was already too far to notice the pain i felt .from a distance he could only sense extreme pain .

look.. i get that its weird since i'm not like you guys but that doesn’t mean i can’t love him "i sat down onto the chair besides him .

yes exactly that is what it means .don’t you get that no one wants you here except him ? it’s been too long already that we had to deal with you .. don’t you think he'll someday get tired of you as well you're a fucking human and Jongin is an alpha, a strong one! do you know how hard it is to fight his wolf all the time just because you're so god damn weak?

He doesn't need your worthless ass" I flinched at his loud voice and as he stood up i almost fell off the chair wincing . he chuckled breathy . looking at me as i held my torso .

you can’t even have sex  without carrying a bruise after it "he chuckled and i looked down again as he walked away with his pencil and book

Jongin "

i whispered as i turned to him in the bed . his eyes were closed and he layed on his side facing me now as well.

"mh "

how does it feel ..t-to fight with kai ?"i could see him frown at my question and it made me feel nervous . I’ve been wanting to ask him this question since days now and i don’t even know why i came up with the courage to do so now

it’s not a fight .. it’s just like an argument .. no its like .. there’s a door to a room and in that room kai is sleeping . and whenever he wants to come out without me wanting it . i hold the door close and after a while he usually calms down and goes back to sleep "he explained and i pulled the blanket over my shoulder sighing .

what if he doesn’t go to sleep ?"his eyes opened now as he looked at me . they were glowing slightly .

what’s wrong ?"he asked me with voice this time while looking over my face and i looked away from his eyes .

nothing i was just ... curious "

i started hiding myself more under the blankets .

nugget... "he grabbed my hand away from the blankets and moved them down to reveal my face again .

i don’t want to be a burden Jongin "admitting it i didn’t dare look at him .

why on earth would you think you are a burden ? "

you keep fighting against you’re wolf just because i'm too weak"

Kyungsoo.. you think i have a problem with that ?"

i shrug my shoulders and he finally brought his finger under my chin to look at him

nugget ...,  i hardly fight against him anymore now because he now understands that you’re not  like us ... besides that i never fight against him . i only hold him back and  even if i would have to hold him back every second that i am with you .. i would still be with you "his words made me smile as i look at him . "now stop worrying and go to sleep "he pulled me closer inhaling my scent through my hair .

i smiled snuggling into him

and we both soon fell asleep .