I hear horns outside. I'm going to see it's the car and the men from the last time. Didier gives me a quick kiss and rushes off. I'm so sad. Pffff!

I didn't want to stay another minute at his place...I was so disappointed. It's too annoying! Damn what's happening to me lord? Why do I feel so sad? Why am I having so much trouble accepting reality, this reality which is clear and precise: this relationship will yield nothing and will be one-sided...I'm still going to suffer, I'll be the only one to suffer...pfff! I don't know why I miss Didier so much, normally I shouldn't be in these...