EEVN

"Who cares girl, why waste your time planning and sketching escape plans , anything that goes on in your head goes on in mine just so you know I'm your other half , so don't even think about it"

I giggle , slightly amazed

" I haven't had this type of conversation In a while, I'm surprised you talk this way"

"What were you expecting? An old furry animal who lives within you, coming girl I'm nothing like those novels you write, when you read books abiut wolves I always rolled around laughing , they make us wolves be a mute in our Hosts body, you sure thought I would be speaking in some old German accent right?"

"I didn't say so, but I wasn't expecting anything like this, you talk better than I do"

"Yeah, cause I look better , and fix up your confidence girl you be walking and looking like an old Haggard lady, ive never been seen by anyone but I take time every godamn day, washing and cleaning up, I watch you everyday and you seem to be a really odd one, I feel miserable being your other half"

"I'm sure you do everyone seems to think I a'm wierd mum and dad too, now Ani and Chris thinks I'm going crazy"

"That's why you have me Eevn, I'd be there for you always "

"I'm scared"

"Of what to be precise?"

"Of everything, id have to leave everything, my friends, my family, school and I'd have to give up on writing"

"In sorry girl , it that's the price you have to pay, you'd find better friends in the pack, better family and a new hobby, but if you decide not to leave it's your choice no one forced anything on a lycan, you can live as a lone wolf "

"I don't know, everything about me was a lie, all my life I've been living a lie, what happens if I don't want to be one"

"You have no choice eevn you can either decide to be a pack or be a lone you can't stop your transition it would happen anyways , and soon enough, I have to go girl, your boy has been bawling his eyes off"

"Zack?"

"Yes,and one more parting advice , if you decide to live as a pack, it would hurt less if you get rid of all connections you have now especially Zack, sooner or later you would find your mate"

I gasp for breath , scanning my environment

" You are awake?"

I sit up on the bed

"Obviously"

"I'm sorry eevn, I promise to be better,no arguments no backing out, Im sorry I shouldn't have run up on you like I did"

"It's fine Zack"

"Is there anything I can do to make it up to you?"

"It's alright Zack, I didn't die I only lost conciousness "

"Exactly, while you were out I thought really hard, what if you died for real , have I been a good lover?, Have I supported you?, Have I helped you in anyway? But all the answers to my questions was no, I haven't been a good lover neither have I assisted you in anyway, I have never read any of the books you write but you find time to attend each tournament of mine, I don't deserve you eevn, I want to be better for you , forgive me and let's start afresh"

I smile inwardly filled with pain, the moment I've been waiting for , he finally knows how how hurt I've felt but I'm afraid it's too late, if really I decide to become the member of a pack of have to leave everything behind and if I become a lone wolf I'd still have to meet my mate, I feel pure distress and sorrow, tears form in my eyes but I fight hard to hold it in

"Let her rest Zack, it's not like she's poof into thin air"

"I'm sorry Gab, I had to make sure shes fine before leaving "

"Now you've sent it yourself let her be"

He leans on me, passing a brief kiss on my lips, he pulls away from me

"I'm sorry but I have to leave eevn, I'd be back tonight "

"I wave him off smiling, concealing the pain I feel beneath"

"Bye ZacK"

"You too Gab"

"He's cute isn't he?"

"I know Gabriella, and don't even think if it"

"I wasn't thinking at all, I said what came to my mind"

I roll my eyes not responding

" I'm not a bad person eevn, I had to act according to orders"

"You totured me half of my life, I be been miserable ever since you came over to live with my mother, I was bullied, embarrassed and compared to you all my life, you are gorgeous , pretty , classy and everything I'm not"

"I felt bad all through, I couldn't do anything, orders are orders when you join the pack you'd get what I mean"

"What's wrong with me?, I keep passing out here and there"

"It happened to me too, my first encounter , did you see her?"

"I did, she had a lot to say apparently"

" It's a full moon today eevn,"

"I'm sorry but I'm not a fan of forecasts",

"What do you want for lunch?"

"I'd like to sleep please,"

"I'd make something for you to eat, get some rest, you need to make a choice soon, you can't keep your wolf hidden"

"I would,"

" I made soup , have some before you go off to bed"

"You didn't mix up some crazy stuffs did you?"

" I'm not the bad guy eevn, all I want to do is help, have some before it goes cold"

She eyes me suspiciously, gulping the content slowly, she rests her head on a pillow laying back in bed, k watch her as she falls asleep,

" I'm sorry eevn, but I have to do this "

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I stretch feeling something cold beneath me, slowly I open my eyes adjusting to the surrounding,

"Where am I?"

I try sitting up but I get a burning sensation in my throat,

"What happened"

I get gripped by horror,

"Have I been discovered? Am I hunted?, Am I in jail?"

Several thoughts run through my mind,I get hit by a wave of pain in my body , it spreads slou through my body, it feels like I've been lighted in fire, I try shouting but my throats burns, then I remember, that bloody liar

"Gabriella!!!!!"

"I'm here eevn"

"You bloody liar, what did you feed me?"

"Mushroom soup"

I arch my back on pain feeling all over

"Oh spare me the lies you wench!!!!"

" I added a tint of wolfsbane"

I spring towards her ,holding the wrought iron bars,

"Let me out you horrible bitch"

"And be killed , nope I'm not taking chances, I'm amazed you aren't weak you really are a pureblood"

I yell, releasing a growl, I feel my nails enlongate my emotions are heightened I feel different emotions surge through me, I feel betrayal, pain , excitement and feat all at once,

"Stop this please!!",

I plead to her

"I can't blame it on the moon"

"Let me out or I'd tear you apart bits by bits till you catch your last breath"

I gasp in shock did I really just say that?,

"With that voice no way, relax eevn it's going to be fine"

Let me go please, I promise to be nice, I won't hurt or bite

What's wrong with me?,I ask me myself mentally, I keep saying things I don't mean and Why does my voice sound that way?,

I feel a high pitch go off in my ears, I feel pain like never before , I can feel my bones breaking and twisting

"Help!!!!!"

I look up at Gabriella but she turns away from me walking back into the house,. I bend totally feeling my spine curve gradually, I drop on all fours feeling pain all over, my neck twists as I let out a loud growl,

I close my eyes feeling exhausted , it hurts everywhere, I wait for few minutes but no more pains comes after, I let out a sigh only to hear a howl, shocked and amazed I look down to my shadow, I gasp in shock seeing the shadow of a huge wolf, I look to my hands to see pass and claws covered with strands of grey hair,

Feeling scared and amazed , I howl once again feeling pleasure and satisfaction like never before, I can't beleive it, I'm actually living my dream, I've spent years fantasizing, dreaming and wanting to become a wolf, I've studied, researched,and documented about wolves , all my life I've wanted to be one, I've written about them dreamt about them and prayed to be one but now I'm actually one I'm amazed ,wanting to know,explore and understand more about wolves, I'm beginning to fall in love with this new me.

"Woah, you are so huge girl, I told you it would be alright"