If it's in love, I'm a loser. Why is it that in person, it is no longer possible? Why can't I love someone?If only I was the first one he saw instead of Natalia. Will he love me?

We don't know. We cannot teach our hearts.On Damon's part I can't teach him to love me because like I said the heart can't be dictated.

Will I just stop? Or will I continue? If I stop I will still be hurt. If I continue 'it's still the same. I will still be hurt.Am I this hard to love? How can I be happy if he is my only happiness?

Why did I love someone like him? If only I could focus on others. Made crib. Maybe, I'll just let it go until I'm bored? I will get tired of the pain. That’s probably it.

Avoid him while I can.

I will insist, I will avoid.

I feel the pain of the sun on my skin while heading to the big HMU Court .It's afternoon and we need to practice volleyball.Wearing our usual PE uniform color dark green with HMU brand on the front and number and surname on the back.

So the stamped on my back is twenty two, Cordova. Pair 'are short cycling shorts that are comfortable with every move of the woman.

"I told you ! you know that's Damon is so crazy with Natalia. You're hurting again. "

Ruru preached to me. When did she just support my stupidity. She always preaches to me.

But I didn't yell anymore, because in the beginning I was really wrong.

I rolled up my jersey shirt and combed my long hair.

"Don't worry I'll stop ..." I said gently. For myself as well.

"Why do you have a choice ??"

I feel like crying again.I simply looked up.

To prevent my tears from falling.

for the sake of myself I will avoid him.

That word he released, three days ago was like only yesterday ..

It seemed like a knife word that left a wound in my heart when he said that.

We were good and I was enlightened. Footsteps and the crash of the ball we immediately heard as we entered the gate of the court.The varsity players, including Damon, immediately greeted us.

But I didn't bother to turn around to look for him. I bent down while crossing the other bleachers to sit there with my other classmates.

"Zandria!" I looked behind me to call me.

Yvone, one of my classmates.

She approached me and stepped aside. She was kind to me. She was also one of the tops in our room.

"Hey! Why?" I said and turned on my mineral water.

"My older brother asked for my favor. He found out that we're classmates."

"What's that?" I asked.

She was so scratchy in her hair.

"Ah !what, if ... if you can, he'll be happy to date you. " SHe said in a shy tone.

Her brother Steven Delos Santos? He was a football player and was sometimes taken as a model by clothing brands. Model otherwise.Also one of those, admires here.

"Oh really?" I dont know how to react. This is not the first time someone has invited me. Many times already.

"Oh no! Tell your brother. It's okay. Zandria is NBSB! No boyfriend , very single and ready to minggle." It was Ruru who answered even though I hadn't thought about it yet.

Ruru's laughter disappeared when I looked at her badly.

"Oh .. What? Do you agree Zand?" Yvone asked again.

Maybe nothing will be lost if I accommodate, right? Nobody gets angry ..

Another one I also need to enjoyin the youth of my age.

I nodded .. "Ah, all right."

"Yes!" Ruru shouted.

Yvone laughed.

"Ay! Thank you! I know .. brother will be happy with it. You are hi Long time right crush!"

Yvone took my cellphone number so she could text me when her older brother and I would leave.

After practice we went to the locker to shower and get dressed.

"When did you date Steven, Zand?" Ruru asked, as I got out of the shower. We have other colleagues here who are all women and also dress up.

"I think he’ll text me about it." I said drying my hair.

I was wearing a white vneck shirt and rag shorts that went over the pocket. I paired that with black slip on shoes.

"Good, so you can forget Damon."

She stood up and looked at her wristwatch.

"Hala, I'll be going Zands huh? I still have some way to go."

"Okay." After she left, I carried my shoulder bag with only a few notebooks and my PE uniform.

My hair was wet as the wind blew when I came out.There are no more people, because they probably have gone home or hung out at starbucks or Mc'do outside.

As I was passing the men’s locker I was almost sneer as I collided with a chair on which was sitting a man I was avoiding.

"I-I'm sorry. I didn't see you."

H ite didn't say a word he just looked at me like I was a puzzle to him. That he seemed to be reading my mind. That seemed to penetrate to my soul.

"Did you agree to date?"

How did he know? Did he hear we were in the court?

"Huh?" I cleared my throat. "Yeah, there's nothing wrong.Besides, it's just a friendly date. "

"Friendly date? He's hitting on you, obviously." What about him now? What's he doing? After he said that? What did he think of me?

"I won't answer. One more thing, I'm free to do what I want. So we'll date. He’s single and I'm single so it’s okay. " I replied to him as he calmed down. Because I hit a nerve.

"I didn't say I had care." He said firmly and his gaze deepened on me.

I sighed at what he said.

Alright, he doesn't have a care anymore. Even if I get hurt he doesn't have a paw. Even now that I’m hurt.I swallowed and bowed to realize.

"I'm sorry. I'm leaving." Goodbye ..

I was about to leave but, he pulled my wrist.

"Do you like him?" Why did he ask that question?

I looked at him confused until he climbed into the chair and approached me. The hand still remained onmy wrist.So I was amazed at him.

"Do you like him?" He asked again and tightened his grip on my wrist.

Why is he like this now? if he has a problem don't touch me ..

"N-no.." I replied. He grabbed me and in a flash he claimed my lips again.

God damn it! When do I not want to? When did I come to my senses? What is this again?

I almost shook my head with each advance of his kiss and in a tug he pulled me into the boys locker room .... and kissed me again.

My brain can hardly process what is happening in my life right now ..I think I'm going to explode with my heart beating so fast.I did not expect it.I was about to close my eyes when I saw two men here in the locker room.

Fuck!

Even faster than lightning I pushed Damon.

"There's a man .." But Damon didn't budge. His two hands are still wrapped around me.

"Fuckers." because he turned his back there and I was facing.

"Radleigh .. Clinton .. Get out .." Damon said emphatically.

Radleigh whistled.I know one of Damon's cousins. This one is also very playboy e.

They quickly put on a t-shirt and put away their belongings.

Rad tapped Damon shoulder.

"Hokage move huh?" Clinton chuckled .. and winked at me.

"Soft core Damon." Clinton said and they left.

I swallowed as his gaze moved to my lips.

Oh god .. What now?