#Chapter6

ALESSANDRO POV

As the sun rose over the mountain, I finished putting the last of the bags in the car and sat in the back seat. I pulled out my phone and plugged in my earphones listening to music waiting on Jermaine and Hunter, our driver who was still inside the airport. A few minutes later they walked through the exit to the car, Hunter slid into the driver's seat while Jermaine went to the passenger seat. As we started the drive down the main road I got lost in my thoughts watching the cars go by out the window.

Where is she? Why couldn't I find her?

I know she's real. I know I saw her but I've searched everywhere and still she eludes me.

Was she even real?

No, she has to be!

A beauty such as her's couldn't be made up. I know what I saw that day Xavier confirmed it, but it's been four years and I have yet to find her, where could she be.

This is so frustrating. Why is life always so cruel to me? I don't deserve this. My wolf is constantly restless, always whining and howling in agony begging for his mate but no matter how hard we try we can't find her.

My thoughts were interrupted when Hunter suddenly stomped on the brakes for a second making me shoot forward but I caught myself by placing my hands on the back of his seat.

"What the hell hunter" i yelled at him

"Sorry but there was a dog crossing the street i couldn't hit him"

I sighed leaning back in my seat as he continued driving. I saw Jermaine pulling out his phone to make a call. I figured he was calling my mom to let her know we'd be arriving soon. I miss her so much it's been almost five months since I'd last seen her. Xavier and I both could both use one of her warm hugs right about now.

"Hello" i heard as the phone was answered

"Hey honey" Jermaine says into the speaker

"Did you guys land already?" Mom asks

"Yeah we just left the airport around 20 or so minutes ago"

"How's Al, is he ok?"

"Yeah he's back there listening to music"

"Tell him i said hi and that i miss him and i love him"

"Al your mom says-"

"I heard" i cut him off

"Hi mom i miss you and i love you too" i say so she could hear me

"Hey baby you ok?" She asks

"Yeah I am good, just can't wait to see you"

"I can't wait to see you too bambino"

"What am i chopped liver" Jermaine feigned hurt

I heard mom chuckle before answering him, I blocked them out though because my mind went back to a certain someone. About forty five minutes of driving I was starting to doze off when Hunter pulled into a drive thru, the voice of the operator reaching my ears.

"What do you want to eat?" Jermaine asks

"I'm not-"

"Don't even bother to say you’re not hungry because you haven't eaten since we left Cali and your mom will have my ass if she found out i let you travel from one country to another without eating" he cuts me off

"Fine just get me a burger and a milkshake" i sighed

He turned around to make our orders while I rested my head on the glass, my eyes half open. He soon collected our food and was off once again, Jermaine handed me a bag containing my burger and then my milkshake. I quickly ate and wrapped the garbage up placing them at my feet

"We’re almost there but you can go back to sleep All I'll wake you when we reach"

I nodded my head, barely listening.

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Another hour later hunter pulled off the main road and onto a dirt path with a NO TRESPASSING at the front, the sign was something Alpha Zander thought of to keep humans out of the woods so they wouldn't stray into our pack lands. Hunter drove briskly as the trees passed by us and soon enough we were going up the familiar rocky pathway, pulling up at the pack house. Hunter turned the car off announcing we had arrived, the place was silent since it was still early in the morning. Jermaine turned and looked at me saying

"Hunter and I are gonna drop some stuff off inside. Do you wanna just head home now or wait till I get back?"

"I'll wait"

With a nod he released his seat belt and got out of the car. He and Hunter took a few boxes from the trunk bringing them inside while I went back to thinking about my life.

I highly doubt there is a person alive whose life is more fucked up than mine. Childhood aside, since I had a great childhood. But ever since my first shift my life went completely downhill. Can you imagine having to see your mother with third degree burns all over her skin just because some ass hole couldn't take a hint. People act like I'm some sort of evil person because I killed a lot of people, so what? Millions of people die on a daily basis and most of them are innocent, the one's I’ve killed are anything but.

Monster of Florence my ass, I don't care if they consider me a monster. I'll become the devil himself if it means protecting the ones I love. But what really worries me about my whole reputation is if my mate has heard of me, maybe that's why I can't find her because she is afraid of me.

No i can't think like that

But it could me possible i mean the stories have spread all around the globe

Maybe my mate is hiding from me, maybe she's afraid of me, afraid I'd hurt her, maybe she doesn't want to be with a monster.

Maybe i-

"Alessandro!" Jermain yells all of a sudden

"What!?" I growled angrily in a deep voice

"Al your eyes" he says

I looked at myself in the rear view mirror and that's when I realized I was getting angry by my thoughts and shifting in the car. My claws were sunken in the car seat and my skin was being covered with fur.

"You ok kiddo?" Jermaine asked, worry evident in his eyes

"I- I have to go" I say , opening the car door, finishing my shift and bolting into the woods.