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It was strange and new to me. The boldness and the rest. I thought of Shane for the rest of that night.

Whenever I thought of what he'd done, of how he made me touch him, of when I saw him shirtless, my entire body had a strange reaction. Strange but pleasant. One I'd never felt around Josh. I couldn't explain how confused I was.

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That night I dreamt of Shane. It was totally inappropriate and there was no way to avoid him. I didn't understand. I felt almost frustrated for something I wasn't sure I knew about.

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On a free day, Sloane invited me to their...