Diana's POV

Somehow I was suddenly willing to follow in John's footsteps. After I accepted John's offer I was confused. I'm confused as to why this could just happen. I wonder why I easily accepted the offer of someone I just met last night. What's worse is why I suddenly had a relationship that I shouldn't have, even with someone who seemed to give me a good impression the first time.

My logic should be able to work optimally so that I can think clearly. John and I first met at a bar, not at a house of worship. But maybe it can be said that it is normal when I am under the influence of alcohol. So it's hard for me to differentiate between good people and manipulative ones.

Wait a minute! I don't know much about John yet. I can't yet conclude what Jonathan Cooper's true character is. I'm confused about where to start to be able to examine and assess John's personality. I think that following him is the reason that I get protection while I get a job to increase my income and the important point is that I can be distracted by the influence of the feelings that still surround Tyler.

I hope that my journey in following John's footsteps can be cathartic so that I no longer care about anything regarding Tyler and his whereabouts now or even in the future.

I didn't have any further thoughts about continuing my relationship with John. I just hope there are stepping stones ahead. Because just once, I hope it doesn't make me or John addicted and carry out a repeating and continuous cycle.

My biggest hope is only one, namely recovery and recovery. I Diana Sanchez can live without Tyler's shadow. I will try my best to return to being the real me.

My thoughts wandered far away when I remembered my long relationship with Tyler. Tyler and I dated for nine years from the time I started college until we each finally got jobs.

I met Tyler when I entered the university gates. I thought at first that Tyler was a figure I could be proud of because he was able to provide shade to my soul, which at that time was on the verge of turmoil due to having just broken up with my boyfriend, Miller. Miller was my younger classmate when I was studying at Senior High School. Miller broke up with us for no apparent reason. Even now I don't know why Miller broke off his relationship with me.

I don't know, I almost didn't care about that because my focus was starting to get diverted by Tyler. I knew Tyler in a good place, not at the Bar like I first knew John now. Tyler and I met at the campus library. I found Tyler reading the book I was looking for at that time to complete the assignment given by the lecturer. At that time, I was chasing a deadline and really needed a reference from the book immediately. The book that Tyler is holding is exclusive and hard to find anywhere. Until I dared to borrow the book from his hand.

At first, Tyler didn't want to let me borrow the book. But I kept trying to persuade him to get the book and finally, Tyler gave in and gave it to me voluntarily and for free. I gave Tyler reason after reason so that he didn't mind lending me the book and didn't even hesitate to give me this rare book without conditions. Since then I have become quite close friends with Tyler. We often have discussions about serious matters related to lectures.

Until finally the seeds of love grew between us. Wait! Love? I don't mean just sympathy and lust. Because at that time my thoughts and feelings were still with Miller. Even after Tyler and I graduated from college, I still felt safe with Miller. Do not tell anyone! Only I know about this. No one will ever know what's really in my heart. Back again at the time when I started to have a relationship that was more than just friends with Tyler.

Tyler, who has high royalty and loyalty, increasingly attracts my sympathy. More precisely, it's not sympathy but it attracts my interest in continuing to depend on him. Apart from being smart and having many skills that I don't have but need, Tyler is also a good listener. That's what I needed all this time in my life, yes good listener. I, who like to talk too much and have a sanguine personality, feel very suited to meeting and uniting with Tyler, who has a melancholic personality. Tyler doesn't have many words to interact with but he is able to understand every word that comes out of my mouth even though he can't stop how many words it comes out.

Clearly, he looks like he never gets bored of listening to me talk, especially since I never run out of words. Maybe Tyler felt like I was being read a bedtime story by me or maybe he hadn't really digested my chatter all this time. Really? But he always responds, meaning he pays attention to the essence of my stories. Never mind, forget about it. It is clear that apart from being a loyal and good listener, Tyler is also very diligent in worship and has extensive religious knowledge. I don't have any more hopes for Tyler, it's just that at least I really like Religious people.

Until then, Tyler and I lived our days like normal people dating. Wait! Tyler Religious I said? Would a religious person easily have a special relationship with the opposite sex? I don't know, I was driven crazy by the statement I concluded before I finally got to know Tyler more for years. Although someone who likes to listen doesn't rule out the possibility that Tyler has also told me about his past. Tyler has never been in a relationship and he has dreamed of becoming a religious leader since childhood.

Maybe it was because the environment influenced him. After all, his father and mother were also quite religious. But even so, it is not taboo for Tyler that he was also close to several members of the opposite sex when he was a teenager and in puberty. Until he once told me about Katty, a woman he found difficult to forget. We in a relationship actually often exchange stories about the past, even family ins and outs and many things. But I still dominate the portion. Is it because I'm a woman who actually likes to talk more than men or is it true that Tyler just has little desire to tell his life story?

I understand that Tyler is loyal and far from cheating. So I always believed that there would be no cheating in our relationship. I always felt safe in the relationship I had over the years with Tyler. Especially when you are halfway through formalizing your relationship by getting engaged. I was always sure that our relationship would be fine and reach the stage of marriage and having cute children. In fact, I'm more afraid of myself, considering my track record asmaraloka is too complex. Before I finally had a relationship with Miller and then with Tyler, I preferred to explore looking for compatibility in every member of the opposite sex I met without focusing on just one person.

I look for comparisons in every person of the opposite sex who is close to me for a true mission of comfort. Until I found half the comfort in Miller but Miller disappointed me suddenly. Finally, I had a special relationship with Tyler, and my explorer soul reappeared. I really enjoy dealing with different types of characters and personalities. I prefer to adopt everything that is not in me and is in the plural of men I meet. Until I forget that Tyler is also an ordinary human being who could betray me at any time. After several times I was caught by her in a relationship with another man, now it was my turn to feel what Tyler always felt.

However, Tyler always accepted me back openly and always forgave me for the mistakes I made repeatedly with different people. But this time, it seems like Tyler is starting to forget everything. I think that now there is no more tolerance and hope to always return to a relationship without ever considering bad events happen.

"Hey, don't think too much about that Tyler, eh Tyler, okay?"

I was startled from my reverie which was exploring every incident after my old incident. My old memories emerge. Indeed, heartache always brings up strong memories about things that I really don't want to bring up again.

I looked at John who was packing his things into the cupboard.

"Okay, learn to move on! You have a lot of future that you haven't revealed yet. Instead of focusing on Tyler, it's no use, it's just a waste of your time."

Still cleaning up without looking at me, John talked like that.

I swallowed saliva. Why not? John didn't feel what I felt then suddenly he spoke as if he knew everything and limited me in thinking and feeling.

Suddenly John turned his body towards me and walked towards me. I was suddenly shocked when John brought the bridge of his nose closer to mine.

"There's no doubt, now that bite on your neck, you're all mine."

John spoke impudently as if he had become the king of my life and at will could do whatever he pleased with my survival.

When the bridge of his nose touched the bridge of my nose, I swallowed saliva again with an unstoppable flow of saliva rolling down the base of my throat.

In my heart, I muttered.

"Who is he? How dare he order me around and talk like this? Why did I meet John? How long will this happen and when will this end?"

I grumbled in my heart. But John seemed to know what was in my heart. Feelings of annoyance mixed with bad thoughts about him can easily be penetrated and manifested.

"Hahahaha... Later you will find out for yourself after spending long days with me."

"Hah?" I was shocked to hear John's words as if he could clearly hear what I was saying in my mind.

Why did it happen? Who really is John? Does he have powers that ordinary humans don't have? Or John is an indigo?

I don't know, I'm too tired to guess something that doesn't yet have an answer. Because of the bad incident that just happened to me, I'm quite tired and would rather lie down and forget all the bitter events that just happened yesterday. But without me realizing it, Tyler and I's engagement ring was still wrapped around my middle finger. The corner of my eye that glanced briefly at the ring I was wearing suddenly invited a million sad feelings and brought up old memories that hit me hard without pause and mercy.

Without realizing it, I shed tears, a sign that I felt a very painful wound in the deepest part of my heart.

John approached me and got closer. He tried to calm me down by placing both palms on my shoulders parallel to his body. Then John grabbed his cellphone, he skillfully searched for classical music and he clicked quickly and began to hear soothing classical music.

John's hands began to change position. His right palm was still on my right shoulder while his left hand very naughtily slipped into the button of my shirt from the front and into my waist. His hand gently touched my waist.

Instantly I felt hypnotized by a situation that made me feel like I belonged to John completely.

Without further ado, I immediately hit John's mouth mercilessly with my mouth which immediately turned more savage and vicious.

We really enjoyed this moment and it was as if I was John's legal partner. Without the slightest shame or awkwardness, I started everything with a scene that was more aggressive than before. I don't know why this could happen. Even now I feel out of control. I really enjoyed John as well as John. I really want to enjoy John every day. I want to be with him wherever he goes. I want to go with him. Although I'm still confused about our true status. But I feel like John is the whole of my life. John's taste is better than Tyler's.

My breath was short of holding back the endless pleasure. Likewise, John also really enjoyed this situation. I sighed and sighed more and more. We try every style and we give it away. My heart was pounding hard and felt like it was going to fall out any minute because of how strong the pounding was. Ahhh...really John. I don't say much about you other than this feeling that is difficult for me to explain.

Since last night's meeting with John, I felt thrown into a pool of honey which tastes really sweet and sticky but has a very soft structure that brings comfort many times over.

"John," was in a standing position and completely naked. I placed the palms of my hands on John's cheeks.

John smiled touching my feelings.

John played his fingers all over my body without giving me the slightest excuse for taking a deep breath.

"Ah, John"

John smiled again and played more naughtily with his fingers.

I felt a climax that I couldn't control. I looked wild this time and very, very aggressive.

"Let's do more than this!" half-consciously I said this statement to John.

John was getting more and more excited and when I was getting weaker from experiencing climax and a little more I felt more and more satisfied, suddenly John ended it all.

Oh damn!

Instantly I froze and my eyes widened in protest at what John was doing this time.

Then John started talking like he had never done any scenes with me and he stabilized again in a flash. Meanwhile, I still feel the remnants of the incomplete pleasure just now.

"Now you can tell me in detail how Tyler cheated on you!"

I swallowed saliva again.