Alpha Jasper’s POV

It was a new moon and the sky was dark and gloomy, just like the way I feel deep inside of me. I have tried to pretend everything was alright, but it seems the more I pretend, the worse it gets.

I know I was the one who rejected her and didn’t want to be with her, not after looking for my mates for years, I have always been curious about the way she looked and how we were going to meet, and never in my wildest dreams did I think we are going to meet this way.

I have been having several nightmares about her and I could hardly stop myself from thinking about her, it felt like half of me was gone when I rejected her, no one ever told me it is this hard to lose one’s mate. I sniffed and looked at the dark and gloomy sky again as I dwelt on my sorrows.

I suddenly heard a knock on the door and I groaned before getting the door, I arched my brows when I saw Anna standing before me, she tilted her head to look at me and I could see a worried expression on her face.

I suddenly felt like a bad person because I hadn’t been given her the attention she craves, my heart has been preoccupied with Reedah, and each time I think about her, I remember the way she pronounced her name when I asked her, the way her tongue rolled out her name and not just that, I always remember the way our body sync so perfectly that night and I wouldn’t lie that was the best night I have ever had.

My wolf kept on whimpering at the back of my head, making it more difficult for me, he wasn’t happy I rejected our mate, and he badly wanted to be with her, he had tried dominating sometimes to go out and search for her, but I had stopped him refusing to give him the dominance he craved.

“Are you okay?” Anna’s worried voice. Suddenly resonated through my brain, jolting me out of my reverie, I smiled faintly and moved away from the door, I let her inside the room and shut the door. I shouldn’t be thinking about Reedah when I have Anna with me, who is ready to spend the rest of her life with me.

“I noticed you have been spacing out a lot, and you hardly invite me to your room, is everything okay?” she asked again when she noticed I hadn’t replied to her first question.

“I’m okay, Anna, you shouldn’t get worried about anything. I have just been busy with pack duties, that’s all” I said, and she gave me a skeptical look which shows she hardly believed what I said.

“Why don’t you allow your beta to ease your burden? You have a beta for a reason and that’s for him to make the work a lot easier for you, You have people that can help. I don’t like seeing you all stressed, it affects my emotions” Anna said and moved closer to me, I smiled and wrapped my hands around her waist.

“When I see you this way it makes me have jittery feelings knowing I am loved,” I said and Anna burst into laughter.

“Of course, you are loved, I wouldn’t have wanted my life another way, I want to be with you to the end of eternity,” Anna said in a seductive and hushed tone. Her eyes flickered between my eyes and my lips.

I noticed she wanted to kiss me badly, and I leaned over, I kissed her, and she parted her lips immediately, our tongues entwined and swirled around each other while she softly moaned. We suddenly pulled away from each other, trying to catch our breaths.

“Why don’t we try making a baby tonight, I have missed your touch, you haven’t touched me for a while,” Anna said, and I lost the mood immediately.

I slowly pulled away from her, and she wrapped her hands beneath her chest. “What are you doing alpha Jasper?” she asked, and I could feel pain in her voice, she blinked severally while I exhaled deeply before moving closer to her.

“I am not in the mood right now, we will do that another time, okay? We have all the time in the world to make babies, you have absolutely no reason to get worked up about it” I said, hoping my excuse wouldn’t hurt her.

“It’s not just about making a baby! I missed you so much! I want you badly, I want to feel you deep inside of me, thrusting and groaning my name softly, I want your manly arms wrapped around me while I wither beneath you, Why can’t you understand!” Anna yelled at me, a tear escaping her eyes.

“And I told you we are going to do that over and over again but not this night, you can’t force me to sleep with you when I am not in the mood to do so,” I yelled back and her scrutinizing gaze fell on me.

“This is about her,” she said, and I was quiet, I didn’t know how to respond to that

“I love you, Anna,” I said and she snorted.

“You don’t love me, you wouldn’t be this way if you do. Everything changed ever since you rejected her, You hardly focus on me anymore, and it feels like I am a disturbance to you” she screamed.

“Anna!” I called, but she ignored me and walked out of the room, making sure to bang the door on her way out. I sighed slowly and rested my arms on the wall.

Anna was right, I haven’t been giving her the same attention as I did since Reedah came into the picture, but she also should know Reedah is not in my life anymore, and I will not end up with her, no matter what happens.

I sighed, knowing I would have to talk to Anna in the morning, assuring her everything was perfectly okay between us.