Silvia Point of View

The only thing about sex with Gerard was that there was never any ambiguity between us. Each knew what the other wanted, and how they felt, at least physically. The other times we were together, I had felt insecure about what Gerard thought or felt. To be honest, I wasn't always sure what he thought or felt either. Well, that wasn't exactly true. I did know what he was thinking and feeling, I just knew that I shouldn't think or feel it.

For example, what did it mean that Gerard had brought me to his house tonight? Many times it felt like he was trying to...