I am nothing without her.

She was away from me for five years and I feel like my world will collapse from not seeing her. She kept on sending me letters, not even one I did not write back to her. But I read it over and over, just to feel like she's just here beside me. Diana left and preferred her family, she celebrated her eighteenth birthday without me, our planned wedding did not go ahead. Every day, I did nothing but drown myself at work and alcohol, I want to follow her to that country but I can't, I can't leave the case I'm handling now, which is...