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"But 1....do care" he inquired casually, but still not looking at me.

wh...... I tried answering him back, but found it hard to even say a wor

d. I felt a tingle of an emotion I dont really understand, my heart beatin g more than usual, how can his words make me feel this way? Melissa you need to snap out of this, this is not the right time to think about this, I hear

d an unknown voice screamed in my head. "He only pity you, dont think a bout his word,' he is a liar' The echo of the voice continuer resounding in

my head in a menacing tone. I tried to stop thinking about it and just wani sh from his sight without waiting for the conversation to end. Funnily, I fin d it hard to even move a finger, a sign that I am extremely exhausted right now. Did he really care? Did he? He said it but his behaviour proved con

trary, but that doesnt stop a part of me from wishing what I just heard to b

e true, dont misquote me, I dont say I like him. But this feeling is driving

me crazy. Why am I happy just because someone lied to me just to make me feel better, and I really strived for it to be true, why? Why? Why!!!!!

"Melissa!" His husky voice stopped my train of thought, I blinked my eyes, s haking my head of the thought before I eventually tilted my head to look at him. Is not an exaggeration if I said his look this night is capable of drivi ng any girl crazy, I found myself being mesmerised by his emerald eyesimin ediately our eyes met, I wanted to look down, thinking of escaping his temp

ting look, but an anonymous force i find it hard to described held my eyes into one direction, which is his eyes. I notice something Flickered inside his

eyes, as they kept on scrutinising my innocent face, his green eyes gleaming

under the pallid light that is above our head. looking at nothing in particu lar, than my eyes. I waited, praying silently, for him to say something to st op this gazing competition, but the look on his face doesn't seem like someon e who is ready to say anything as at that moment. I wanted to look away, opened the car door, run through the cold breeze to the maids quarter wit hout saying anything to him for tonight, but it feels like the only thing that can make me to do that is his voice, only if he commanded me, but not when am this lost in his eyes, his Emerald eyes scorching, wandering about w hat my next action will be

At last I found a way to break his compulsion, I coughed silently and dar ted my eyes towards the windshield. I watched from the corner of my eyes as he also deared his throat, making some unpleasant sounds

"Say something' he cooed, her soft voice sending cold shivers down my spine

What did he expect me to say? Gosh, this is driving me crazy, I muttered

under my breath.

"I appreciate your concerns, and I praised you for that," sighed, "But, I wil l be very happy if you could just let me he, at least for tonight I finished, my eyes wandering through the transparent glass window. Yes, I don't kno w what to say, cause I'm lost of words at this moment.

"Melissa, I am not lying, I really care for you from the beginning' he plea ded, I was forced to look at his face, behold, I dont think I have ever seen him like this, not even before, the arrogant brat? I don't think this is the B obby I knew, the look on his face expressed his sincere plea, and I tried to believe him. I tried to let go of this prattle talk just for tonight, but my subs ubconscious mind kept on telling me not to believe any of his word.

Did you just say that from the beginning ? , No, you never care for once, is not easy to forget the scar you left in my heart before you left for Italy, "I find it hard to believe what I just said, yes, have been trying not to talk about our past cause it really hurt whenever I think about it, but I cantj ust easily elude that now, all what he did to me in the past start to rush ba ck into my head, I shake my head, trying to dislodge the thought.

Melissa, that's a thing of the past, believe me, besides, we're not that matu re then, I beg you to forgive all my childish behaviour, then" he looked at with hope in his eyes, staying mute for me to talk. My eyes are fully engro ssed at the tip of my hoodie, while my hands are poking on the leather that is in between my legs, I mulled silently on what to say next. All those pain , all those Lies, all those abuses i suffered from his hand, I cant even repo rt because I don't want my parents to get fired, they start to appear again , i can feel the tears forming . I quickly raised my head and inhaled deep ly, I don't think I will ever forgive myself if I cry in his front. I'm enjoying the conversation from the beginning but this new topic only adds to the pai n I am passing through presently.

I whimpered, it's easier to say than to forget, dont you know that the excr uciating pain may fade, but scar serves as a reminder of our suffering. Me mories are not something you can easily ignore. The tears that have been fi ghting back suddenly rushed down to my face on its own, making my sight

cloudy. I can hear his pleading, comforting me to calm down, but I care less about his words right now.

"Just drive to the quarters already, I dont want to continue this conversatio ni' I sobbed, I could hear the engine come to life immediately. I buried my

head in my hands, and cried my heart out. Nothing matters. After some seconds I can sense the car has come to a halt, and without waiting for him to tell me, I reached for the door and quickly unlocked it before jumping out.

"Wait!" He screamed after me, but that only made me increase my pace tow ards the quarter. I'm very sorry, I am not that strong to ignore this, many things on my mind, but I can only tell you goodnight I cried silently.

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I kept on running towards the building without looking back. I could hear his loud voice behind my back but that only made me increase my pace. Eve ntually, I stopped abruptly when I was sure he was no longer following me , I felt a pain down my lower abdomen, I winced loudly, I howed down m y head, waiting for the pain to subside. I find it hard to breathe, like some thing is choking me without me knowing. Everywhere is silent, the only thin g that is producing sound is the stream of tears that are pouring down my f ace,, I trudged silently towards the quarter gate, I can still feel the pain b ut that is the least thing I care about right now. I just want to escape the pa in, this anguish only for tonight. No maid is on sight immediately I entered

the quarter, a sign that it is very late in the night already, i feel relieved , I won't like a situation whereby many people will rush to my aid when th ey see me, and am also crying, they won't let go of me until they are satisfi ed that am okay, and that's not what I needed for now.

"Melissa!" Melanie loud voice pushed me out of my thoughts, I raised my he ad up to look at her, and before I could even say word, ahh is already in my front, her eyes scrutiny my face for some seconds, I find it hard to say a word to her, her face looked worried as if she had an idea about what h

appened between me and Bobby.

"Are you okay? Where is Bobby?" Her face moving frantically above my sh oulder, she looks like someone who is searching for something. After she wa 8 satisfied, and found nobody, she glanced back at me, giving me a questio n look

"He left, can we go now am tired already, we can easily discuss this tomorr ow" I managed to say, I can feel my leg becoming more weaker than before as each second pass by, I tried pushing her to a side and find my way to our quarter but she quickly grabbed me by my waist, and I find it hard to

protest further. Melanie seemed to understand what I was going through, because she didn't argue or object to my words. Silently, we slowly walked to our apartment without muttering anything to one another, which I really appreciate. I don't think talking to anyone could make me feel any better than this, even if it's my best friend. Melanie gently pushed the door open a nd helped me to my bedroom. After making sure that I am sitting comfortab ly on the bed, she told me goodnight, and I replied with a nod, I quickly pulled the quilt that was lying on the bed beside me over my head, complete ly ignoring her presence. After some minutes of staying inaudibly, I heard the sound of the door being closed, Melanie just left. My head was blank as I stayed motionless for the next couple of minutes without moving an inch . "Ohhhhhh!!!" I suddenly screamed loudly, and pushed the quilt over my head. I burst into tears again, funnily, I can't actually say this is why I am feeling pain at the moment, the only thing I can only think of is crying my heart out to my satisfaction. Screaming and sohbing that lasted for wh at seemed like forever. I eventually dropped down weakly onto the bed, not

even bothering about pulling the quilt over my head, and the next thing? I dozed off without knowing.