Yesterday is my 17th birthday, and tomorrow is my first transformation under the full moon. I hope it’ll be for the best, even though everyone said that the first transformation will be hurt because monster harvester tried to chase young wolf. My mom always said that they were just telling lies, I hope my mom words was truth.

Felix also said that way, but he looked so quiet these days. He refused to meet me after school two days ago, I have no idea what’s the reason behind the refusion. He refused to drive me home yesterday when my tires exploded because of little nails. He acts so weird whenever I try to borrow his phone to take a selfie.

I forced him to enjoy some shrimp balls at the cafe today. He drove me home. He’s standing before me without showing up his cute dimples. He’s going to be weird, even though our relationship never got serious matter, I admit that he’s weird now. He’s changing to be someone different from the first time we met.

“What’s wrong, Babe?”

“Kate, I don’t think we’re compatible anymore. Our relationship is messed up right now,” Felix said in such an ambiguous tone.

The amber eyes looked my blue ones in peculiar way.

“But … I don’t get it. Which one messed up anyway?”

“I’m not comfortable anymore. You’re acting like a baby, although you’re almost seventeen. You’re childish.”

“Erm, what do you mean? You said that isn’t a problem,” I asked in a hoarse voice.

“I admit it isn’t big deal, but you know that you’re almost seventeen. You couldn’t act like a baby all the time.” Felix looked at me with an unfriendly gaze.

“What’s wrong with you? I didn’t know if I couldn’t do that again. I didn’t know what kind of the matter you’re talking about, Babe.”

I tried to make everything more conducive so I wouldn’t get into a ridiculous quarrel with him. Felix sighed in desperation. He’s averted his gazes to another object before us. He doesn’t want to look at me for a long time like what he’s doing to me before.

“Kate, how did you think that our relationship hasn’t a big matter?” he asked me.

“I didn’t think that way, our relationship is okay. You loved me and I loved you.”

“No. I asked you. How did you always think that our rela–”

I chimed in, “Babe, what’s wrong with you? Just tell me why? What happened?”

Once again, he sighed but now, he’s going deeper. He turned his head facing me, while grabbing my palm. His breath sounds like someone who’s participated in a marathon contest.

“I was texting you about our relationship. We couldn’t be together because we no longer fit in with each other. I tried to fall in love with you every day. I hoped I had the same feeling as when we met the first time,” Felix said in a weird gesture.

“Are you serious about that? You want to break up with me?” I asked him once more time.

Felix took a deep breath. “It’s so hard to put into words. But yes … Kate, I think we should break up.”

“But why? What’s the strong reason for breaking up? We were comfortable with each other. We were so sticky like a sticker. We never had a big quarrel before. I couldn’t change my personality if our big problem was my childish personality.”

“Kate, please… you know that in a relationship. When you’re not in the same way as your partner you should be gone.”

“Could you answer my question in the honest way? Do you love me?” I shot him with a pointed question.

“I love you but loving someone doesn’t mean you have to be in the relationship with someone you doted on.”

I let out an exasperated breath. My chest feels tight and heavy. I turned my gaze to another object. I never imagined I’d be in this position. Felix wants to break up with me, even though he knows I still love him. He texted me a few days ago about his wish to break up with me. I thought it was a joke because I hadn’t texted him since the morning. I sat on the iron bench, looking at him with a sad look.

“I’ve trying to fall in love with you again, Kate. I can’t do that. My affection for you changed as if the elder brother’s affection for his younger sister.”

“Which girl can make you fall in love so quickly?”

“Please don’t accuse me of cheating on you with other girls, because I’m not in love with other girls at all.” Felix defended himself and walked up to me.

He touched my hand gently and then explained what he was really worried about. Felix was worried about my first transformation. He was worried that he wasn’t my real mate. I squeezed her hand for a moment and said that I was worried about it too. I explained to Felix that we can get into a relationship, even though Moon Goddess wasn’t written our fate to be together.

Felix smiled then stroked my hair gently. He stood up before me.

“I’m sure you’re just kidding with me like last month. You are playing prank with me.”

Felix shook his head, but he said nothing. My mom opened the main door and looked at us with confusion.

“What are you doing here? Kate, why don’t you take Felix inside? The air outside is so cold, you can get sick if you chat outside.” Mom asked in a puzzled tone.

She stepped up to us. Felix greeted her and apologized for bringing me home a little later than the usual hour. Mom understands that. Mom invites Felix into our house to enjoy a cup of rose tea or warm chocolate. Felix shook his head, he said that he should go home soon because he was going to Elder James’ house. Felix and I looked at each other awkwardly.

“I understand you’re going to be part of the strongest wolf, right? Well, go home and rest soon.” Mom smiled at him.

Felix nodded once more then he rubbed my hair warmly as if our previous conversation was a joke.

“Go to bed soon, don’t stay up late anymore. See you tomorrow, Kate.”

My heart fluttered at his words, but I had to laugh at his innocence. “Felix, take care.”

Felix grinned widely. He winked. I wrapped my arms around my torso and whispered in, “I hope this is just a joke, tomorrow is a big day for me. I know you’re lying, right? You’ll prank on me again like last month. You know that I never joke.”

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I woke up when it was already eight in the morning. I’m late to get up early for the umpteenth time. I quickly cleaned myself up and grabbed the suit I had just picked up from the tailor a few days before. A sunflower patterned jumpsuit that is complemented by a yellow outer but made of denim.

I happily started applying my makeup light makeup so I wouldn’t look like a sick wolf in front of everyone. I took half of my hair and tied it a little high.

I went downstairs with happy steps.

“Sweetie, are you awake?”

I heard my mother calling, heard my footsteps coming down the stairs. I immediately ran to meet him because I did not want to waste much time meeting my soul mate immediately. My mother was in the dining room, preparing breakfast for me. He smiled widely.

“Come here, sweetie.”

I walked over to him and received a warm hug.

“Happy birthday, sweetie,” she said.

“Thank you, Mom. I love you,” I mumbled later.

I received a warm kiss from my mom, then she gave me a cute package that was sure to contain delicious food. I immediately gave my kisses on both cheeks.

“I love you too, dear. Be a good girl,” she replied.

I smiled widely, then put the cute packaging in my backpack to school.

I’m just living with my mom now because I don’t know where my dad is now. My daddy was an ordinary human being, which was annoying and disgusting. He still lived with us a few years ago, and now we don’t know his whereabouts. However, I’m grateful that he went away from my life and my mom’s life.

Their relationship may be like humans in general. My mom loves my dad very much, even will do everything possible to survive with one soul mate until the end of life. However, fate said otherwise because my dad had an affair with another woman. And it keeps repeating itself, and it makes me sick.

Honestly, I hate him and want to pounce on him if I’ve transformed into a werewolf. I wanted to rip his neck and let him feel the same pain he did to me. Unknowingly is what made me grow like this, made me grow up with half a grudge shrouding my heart. My mom was one of the unlucky werewolves to get a second chance at finding a mate.

She focused on me and my older sister, who now lives with an Alpha of her choice, Gustov.

After breakfast that morning, I immediately went to school with a cute motorbike as a gift from Elizabeth, my sister. Just now, I parked my motorbike in a special parking lot, and I looked for Felix. I looked around carefully, and suddenly I felt a wolf’s movement inside my body.

“Soulmate.”

I chuckled a little, looked around the place, and found Felix in a park with his arm supporting a comic. I approached him.

“Dear!”

He glared at me, and he didn’t seem to like me shouting like that. He’s been acting weird lately. I don’t know what happened to Felix. His brow furrowed in annoyance, and then he looked at me with an annoyed look.

What did I do wrong, I thought.

“Honey, are you still mad? What happened? Why did you suddenly change?” I asked.

He stood up straight, left his comic, and put his hands in his trouser pockets. “Listen to me. I am Felix Klein Ramirez, rejecting you as my mate, Katherina Rosemary.”

I felt lightning as if it struck my body that morning. I don’t understand what made Felix have the heart to do that to me. I thought Felix would be so happy like me. He even refused to let me be his mate. What is wrong with me? What happened to him? He rejected me.

I can’t think well now, and I look stupid. While still standing there looking at Felix, who had left in front of me. I’m devastated now. My eyes feel hot from expelling the clear liquid. I looked at his back once again.

“What happened, Felix? Why did you reject me?” With tears slowly falling, I quickly left that place. Find a safe place to cry.