So this is what Loretta meant when she asked me to die.

I need to die and be reborn anew.

My body screamed for hours of rehearsing.

My voice was trembling and my throat was hurting so much, but I still could not get what Loretta wanted. She makes me repeat the same line again and again.

“How could you do this to me?!” I screamed as if I was being chased by a killer, while Loretta circled around me like a predator.

At first, I tried saying it with a low voice, then with a frantic composure, then with a horribly disheveled tone. I was trying to see what...