Mindy

I was enraged and dejected. As I wept in despair, I knew I would never be able to claim Duncan as my own. I told him how much I adore him, and he was surprised. I told him what I'd been keeping hidden inside my chest for a very long time in the hopes that he'd understand what I was saying.

I knew he believed me, but I couldn't figure out why I got the impression from his kiss that he feels the same way I do about him.

And why he was able to ignore all of these feelings so easily by pushing me away from him.

If he would only listen to his heart, as well as mine, the problem would be solved.

He had failed to offer us a second chance to find out whether or not he was interested in pursuing a relationship.

I was on the verge of feeling terribly guilty and helpless. At this point, I wished that the ground would open up and swallow me whole. It was devastating to be ignored and rejected by the person I care about the most in the world.

I fully understand that this relationship was doomed from the start. I knew this was a high-risk venture, and my relationship with Duncan could have potentially come to an end.

The pain, however, was too much for me to handle.

I wished I could scream loudly in front of everyone at this fucking engagement party, telling him how much I adore him.

Whenever I requested that the pianist play the song, and whenever I began to think about it, all I could think about was Duncan. He adored this song, and I wanted to give him a hint that I was singing it to him rather than to my boyfriend Derek, so I sang it for him.

It didn't matter to me that Derek was over the moon about being my date. Yes, I did use Derek to tease Duncan, who was clearly upset with me at the time.

But it was not for the same reason that I was enraged with him! I'm perplexed as to why he seemed to despise seeing me with new boyfriends. Is it because he is Alpha and a well-known businessman?! I didn't quite grasp what was going on.

But, without a doubt, he regarded me as nothing more than a sister.

But hell was a real place for me, and I was living in it. I'm hankering for his touch. I'm looking forward to hearing more from him.

The instincts I had about this strange event that Duncan spontaneously and out of the blue planned and invited me to attend were correct. Something strange was going to happen, as Jack predicted to me.

And it was far from awkward; it was one of the worst nights of my life. It was as if all of the nightmares in the entire world had come together to scare me to death.

After Duncan's engagement to Emma was announced, I barely had the strength to stand on my own two feet. That was the final straw for me, both mentally and emotionally. I couldn't take a breath. All I was able to do was refuse to be a part of this marriage.

His decision to get mated all of a sudden, without telling me or discussing a very important matter in his life, baffled me.

We used to share every detail of our lives with one another. At the very least, he should give me a hint because we only have each other. It's difficult to comprehend how he could be capable of doing such a thing.

Even if I wasn't madly in love with him, even if I didn't regard him as anything more than my older brother, I couldn't help but be drawn to him. He should consider what I have to say.

But that was awful and heartless of him as if he were telling me that I was no longer the most important person in his life!

I screamed, shouted, and protested as if I couldn't hear what he was saying. However, he was simply awful and acting in a different manner. Just as if we were complete strangers! I couldn't figure out where the hell my brother had disappeared to at that point as if he was someone else!

Simply put, I put on the face of the rude girl once more and teased him by dancing with Derek and telling him in retention that I, too, would be mated to Derek.

It was similar to a Tom and Jerry cartoon. As if we were mortal enemies, each of us was making fun of the others' jokes.

However, he pretended as if he didn't give a damn about me for the first time. Or at least that's what I thought until I decided to sing his favorite song, which changed my mind. Derek, however, is the subject of this song, which I dedicated to him. Of course, all of the guests, including Derek and Emma, were under the impression that the song was dedicated to my boyfriend.

No, not at all! Duncan was the only one who was aware that it was for him.

I sang the song, every word painfully squeezing my heart as I sang it. I couldn't keep the tears from streaming down my face. It was pouring outside. I was shivering as I imagined my one and only love on his mating ceremony ay in front of me. Duncan kissing his luna was something I pictured. Using my imagination, I flee to a time in the near future, and I must admit that it was difficult for me to accept that I would lose this battle of love.

My song was finished, and I dashed over to Derek, pulling him into a passionate kiss. I was aware that Derek was taken aback, but he responded positively to my kiss.

On the other hand, Duncan was in the middle of Derek and me in a matter of seconds, punching Derek in the face and pushing me with a hard slap on my face when I yelled at him, nagging about his reaction interfering in my life.

Inside, I was relieved that Duncan wouldn't be able to see me in the arms of another man.

But, once again, that brother's jealousy was fruitless.

Derek was frightened of Duncan. I suppose it was because Derek had vanished in the blink of an eye from my sight.

And then Duncan dragged me into my room. I didn't make a scene or protest. I simply remained silent in hopes of speaking to him privately.

I hoped and prayed that Duncan would be able to hear what was on my mind. He, on the other hand, did not. At that moment, I put my lips on his and pushed his mouth open. He kissed me back, and the kiss was filled with glistening flames of love and passion. It was a completely different experience. Something I hadn't even realized I was feeling. He became lost in the space between my touch and his own.

We didn't come to a halt for more than two minutes. Until he yelled at me and pulled himself away from me. They were harsh words, but they were delivered in a different tone. Mixed in with the blaming and regret was the accusation that I was attempting to seduce my brother. I was filled with guilt, but I pleaded with him to hear me and his heart instead.

He turned his back on me and closed his ears. As if he didn't hear a word I said, he just shrugged his shoulders and given me his back. I was left with a million questions in my head after Duncan had walked out of my room in a rage.

I desperately wanted to find an answer, but I couldn't, which is why I decided to follow him in order to speak with him once more. When I confessed my feelings to him, he was already aware of it, and there was no turning back.

As soon as I reached the pool, Duncan was kissing Emma passionately, and I wondered if he was trying to erase the taste of my lips with hers.

It was an extremely painful and emotionally devastating feeling to me, making me feel brokenhearted and desolate. My brain felt like it belonged to a dead person. And all I could think about was getting away from him as fast as I could, over and over again. There was nowhere for them to go. There was no one to be discovered.

I just jumped into my car and drove at the highest possible speed, pretending I was a pilot and piloting a plane.

There was no plan, no hopes, and no future for me at that time. I was complete without direction. It was the end! It was simply something I had in mind.

However, Derek called me at that precise moment, which allowed me to take my time and consider my options. Duncan will not be mine if I die. Eventually, he would forget about me and be mated up with Emma or another she-wolf.

Committing suicide seemed like a bad idea. Honestly, Derek saved me from a major meltdown. I owe him my gratitude.

I made the decision to go along with him. Perhaps he wasn't so afraid of Duncan after all. It didn't matter whether he was in love with me or not. I intended to put in as much time as I possibly could.

Duncan called me on my cell phone several times, and for some reason, it made me feel very happy. I smirked to myself because the feeling of hope had returned to me...

As long as Duncan is still considered my brother, I'm okay with that.

I called Derek first. “Derek? Can you tell me where you are?” I was in a hurry, so I asked him.

“baby, at my house, are you okay?” Derek asked me with worry.

I sighed and said, "No, I'm not.  I got into a fight with Duncan, and I'm not sure where I should go from here. I left the house, and he is now looking for me.” Derek understood what I was saying.

"All right, why don't you come over to my house?" Derek inquired, and I smirked silently in response. He'll become an enemy of Duncan for me, will he?

Maybe that guy isn't so bad for me after all. Perhaps, if I were to open my heart a little more to him, I would fall in love with him.

I snapped to myself and said to Derek, "You shouldn't do that." Derek agreed. " Duncan has the potential to hurt you.”

“Don't worry, he couldn't do anything to me,” Derek said with a laugh. " Don't undervalue me or my family's abilities. We are extremely wealthy and powerful. All you have to do is come to my house, and I will protect you. If you come, I would be waiting for you.” When Derek informed me, his voice was filled with egotism and confidence.

“All right,” I said as I hung up the phone and walked over to Derek's house. But when Duncan kept calling me, I did the only thing I could think of: I switched my cell phone off.

Nonetheless, before turning off my cell phone, I took out my phone and recorded a voice message that I would later send to Duncan. It was a song written specifically for him.

If I were to stay, I would

I would only be in your way if I didn't say anything.

In that case, I'll leave, but I'm aware of the consequences.

Every step of the way, I'll be thinking of you.

And I—I would always be in love with you.

It felt like I was dying on the inside with every word that came out of my mouth. I couldn't imagine living my life without him by my side. But, for some reason, I made the decision to try my hardest to forget about him. To take a break and spend a significant amount of time with Derek, or with any other guy for that matter. As a means of clearing Duncan's path,  To let him love whatever he wants to. I'm confident that it was not a sacrifice for my happiness. But it was more than that; it was for his benefit. I couldn't afford to be self-centered. His care for me after my parents passed away was invaluable to me. To me, he represented everything. He didn't let me down in the least.

I was perplexed, and my devil wouldn't allow me to think in an angelic manner for a second. But I've made the decision to ignore all of my negative thoughts for the time being until the fires subside. I needed to get away for a while in order to decide whether or not I wanted to tease Duncan and seduce him into becoming mine. This would be a near-impossible mission because I want his heart and soul, not just his hot body, and that would be impossible.

Alternatively, if I tried to be a normal sister and kept myself away, I could live happily with another Alpha and lead a relatively normal life.

My ability to complete this task could take months or even years. Finalement, I hoped that I would be able to achieve my goal.

After sending the voice message song to Duncan, I closed my cell phone and threw it in the back seat in my car. I got into my car and drove as fast as I could to Derek Mansion. I was confident that Duncan wouldn't be able to track me down easily this time. He didn't know Derek's full name. At the engagement party, we didn't have much time to properly introduce him to everyone.

Because I was fucking insane and Duncan was acting like a complete asshole,  I was very close to madness.

Is he madly in love with Emma?! He kissed her because of that, right? He seems to be head over heels in love with her.

So why am I having such a hard time forgetting about his kiss right now? What is it about kissing Derek that makes me feel so disgusted?