It was 4 pm when my Parents decided to have an afternoon tea in the garden.

The beautiful scenery and the warm of the sunlight helps the ambiance into more relaxing. I can also smell the scent of Roses from a far.

It was my Mother's one of her favorite flower.

The maids where carefully poured the tea from our tea cups.

It has a refreshing fragrance from the black tea. I can smell the citrus, a lavender and cedar on it. The tea were paired with savories, scones, sweets and dessert.

Father breaks the silence first through coughing to get our attention. I was sipping a little on my tea before putting it from the table and to give my full attention from Father. Mother also did it.

I was taught when someone were talking, we need to stop from what we were doing and give the full attention on it. That became one of our habit.

I can sense the struggle from Father's expression. I can tell that he was hesitant and he don't know how to start.

"I was called from the Palace this morning," He said on his serious tone.

I was patiently waiting him to continue from talking. Even I knew already what Father's will going to talking about.

But I can't still help to feel nervous because it will be the cue to start my plan.

"And his Highnesses the Emperor wants the only daughter of the Baron Valero's Family became the spouse of his only heiress the crown prince. He also need an answer as soon as possible, especially the upcoming victory ball in tomorrow evening. He wants you to be the partner of the crown prince in the ball and it will also an opportunity to announce your engagement."

Wow, what an impatient Emperor? He can't really waits to fulfill his selfishness.

Despite for the nerve wrecking I still trying to still calm and didn't let an any expression place on my face. Unlike from my Father that he was worried all of over his face while looking at me from time to time and tried to still remaining alert to my reaction.

But a look surprised replaced from his face.

"What?" I asked.

"You're not worried or maybe you're just trying to act that you're okay because you don't want to worry your parents?"

I can see that Mother's agreed from what Father said. She also try to sign language and telling me to share what I'm really feeling. And asking if I am okay.

"I'm really okay, Mother. And Father don't worry I'm not hiding anything."

I'm really okay, except that I already expected this after came back from the past.

Father try to smile but I can still sense his worries. And he kinda proud of me.

"Okay. But what will be your decision?" He ask without beating around the bush.

My two eyebrows meet from the confusion.

"Why are you asking me, Father?"

I didn't expect that he will ask me for my decision. Because from the past he just still remains in silence. But my greediness activate from the bait, so I think he already knew what will be my decision without asking anymore.

But I was still caught of guard. Why he was asking me now or is this one of the effects from my changing way of accepting the news?

"I can't make any decisions in this. And you're the one who's involved so you have a rights to make a decision. All we can do, as your parents..we all need to support you from whatever you may choose." Father said with a genuine smile place on his lips.

Mother also hold the hand of Father that been put on the table.

They smile from each other with so much love in their eyes.

I was so touched from what my Father said. I almost shedding a tears if I didn't try to stop it.

In the past, I was drowned from my greediness that I can't saw how's my parents loves me and how they care about of my feelings. If I didn't died once and realized everything, then until now I can't appreciate their feelings and everything that they did for me.

I was born and grew from a loving parents. It just that I still don't know to appreciate what I have and the reason that I've baited easily and naive to be fooled from the Emperor.

I was gritted my teeth from the thought of the emperor and my also foolishness in the past.

How dared them to play the people just to fulfill their selfish needs and how dared I to be blinded that can't even see nor appreciate the love of her parents. The most treasures that needed to be cherished.

"I don't know what to say. But I really appreciated you, Mother and Father." I said while smiling.

"I want to refuse the proposal, Father. You know how's the Royal family it works. And I can't find a reason why they want me to bs knot in tie with the future Father of the kingdom when I was a only a mere daughter of baron." I said without hesitation.

My parents look surprised from my answer and feeling proud at the same time because the spoiled brat daughter was changing into a mature lady.

"I-i didn't know you will analyze everything." Father's stutter from the shock.

"Should I accept that as a compliment, Father?" I jokingly ask.

"Yes? No!" he cough once to try clearing his throat.

"I mean, yesterday you're just like a baby who's still crawling and now, you look like a fine and mature lady. I can't accept the fact that you're growing so fast." He said with an exaggerating tone but I know that he really mean it every words that he said.

Mother also starting to feel emotional and how she's carefully wiping the tears that accidentally fell from her eyes.

Father try to comforting her while caressing her back and showering a kisses from her temple and head.

If ever I fall in love, I want a man who's like my Father who will cherish me until we're old or more than from what Father that he can give.

"Ouch! It's kinda sting from my eyes." I said jokingly and breaking their moments.

"What a bitter daughter we had, sweetheart?" Father starting to teasing me also.

Mother also agreed and supporting Father from teasing me. She did sign language and teasing me that I just can't relate them because I've never into a relationship.

What a loving parents? They trying to roasting their own daughter. If they only know what I've did from the past.

But I still laugh when they were starting to laugh.

"Anyways, we're so proud of you. And we will always support you from everything. Tomorrow morning, I will request for an audience of his highnesses and respectfully refused his proposal." He said from his final tone.

"Father is really the best." I chuckled.

They also chuckled from what I said.

And the afternoon tea ended with a full of laughter.

The dinner came and as usual it didn't takes any longer to finish it. My parents excuse them because Mother needs to take a rest from a long day.

So I am back from my room. Alone because I let my Lady's in waiting to take a rest already and I want an alone time already.

It's already 11 PM when I look from the clock. I am still awake and busy from organizing my schedules for tomorrow. I will need to write a letter from a certain person and ask an audience from him. I also need to ready my dress for tomorrow evening. And I guess I will go to the capital to watch the parade or should I say to look that someone.

I let a yawn when I feel sleepy. I can feel the starting to heavy my eyelids. I hide the paper that I've used from the cabinet and then I turned off the lamp shade.

I crawl from my bed and properly putting a comforter of my body before I lay down from the bed.

Tomorrow will be a long day and I expecting that it will be a tiring whole day.

I was looking from the dark ceiling until I fell asleep.

I woke up late when I starting to feel the heat from the sunlight of my window. I was confused why didn't Nana wake me up like her usual routine.

I can't even see or sense any movements from my lady's in waiting.

From still confused I carefully get up from my bed and keep alert while slowly reaching the door.

My heart are starting to beating fast. I'm starting to worried that maybe something wrong with everyone.

Did the Emperor chose a big bold moves?

I was hesitant while slowly opening the door. But a silent welcomed me.

It's like an abandoned from a long time the atmosphere from outside of my room.

I was holding tightly the cloak from my shoulders and almost tip toeing from not making any noise from my foot steps.

While I was slowly walking from the corridor, I gasped from the sight that I saw. I can also smell the metallic scent from the blood. The blood was like an art that was painted from the walls.

I bite my lower lips to stop from shouting. I can feel also that I was shivering. In my head I was starting to hysterally.

I don't understand what's happening. But I hope that this is only a dream or a nightmare.

I was stunned from where I am standing after reaching the living room.

All over my body were trembling.

No... This is not true!

This is just a dream that I needed to wake up now.

A hot tears feel from my eyes like a falls. I was biting my lower lip that I've been taste the metallic taste. I don't care if I was hurting myself.

If this is the only way that I can escape from this and wake up from the reality, I will do it more.

I can't stop my sobbing anymore. I was crying hard when I saw the sight of the lifeless bodies from the people that I planned to cherish them. The people that I even promised from my ancestors grieved. But it's looks like I failed again this time.

"Mother...F-father... No, please don't prank me like this." I was starting to choke from my own words.

I can see how's my Father hugging my Mother and trying to protect until their last breath.

I starting to feel complicated from breathing. I can feel the pain from my heart like it was non stop from poking from the knives.

"Nana.."

Please if this just an only dream.. Please save me from here.

I already regretted from what I've done in the past. I promised that I will be a good girl. I didn't also seek for a revenge. I just want to be with the people that I really cherished.

I heard an unfamiliar footsteps.

Without hesitation I tried to look the owner of it. I know that he is not my allied to help me and save me from this terrible dream.

I was caught of guard when I saw finally the person who did everything.

I can sense the dangerous aura from him. Our eyes meet. And I stop from breathing when I was hypnotize from his deadly gaze.

I didn't expect from all the people that I don't want to be enemy, and the thought that he became my almost salvation was the one who taken away my everything.

I didn't do anything wrong just to be feel his wrath and rage. We didn't even talk even once. So, I can't find a reason why he killed them all.

I can feel my body weaken. I can also feel the heavy from my eyelids. And before I lost consciousness, I saw him from the last time holding his sword and pointing at me that he was trying to kill me.

I was catching my breath when I woke up from the nightmare. I curled from laying in the bed and hugging myself and trying to calming myself.

I can remember vividly everything.

I didn't expect that he will did that to me.

Now, I'm starting to feel hesitant from my all plans.

I can't even tell if I'm still dreaming or I'm already on the reality.

I can't handle this none stop nightmare. I always awake from a nightmare and waking up again from the reality by the help of Nana's whose always waking me up in the morning.