I swear my face looks like a ghost. He meets my gaze, before I get up.

"I really should get home," I say, before he also gets up. He must have realized that I was pulling away. I'm not used to being completely alone with a boy like this, and certainly not with someone like Nathan. That's a bad idea.

"We've only been here half an hour, Serena," Nathan says, but he looks at me with a look that reads me far too easily. He knows I was put off by the word "fuck". I can not believe he actually said what he did.

"I have to get home to...