Earlier my cellphone rang and Wallace was calling. I just threw it on the side of the bed and then stood up. I've been crying a lot since I arrived but eventually, I stopped as well.

I just realized that there is no reason to cry. As I said, Wallace and I are not in a relationship so he is free to have sex with others. It hurts because I love him but I can't stop him. I just immersed myself in his body which in fact I could do to others but because I love him I can't.

I got up and left the room to make dinner. I...