What do they say about the birth of a child?

"Yours brought nothing but joy and peace to us. We couldn't have been more grateful to God," my mother once said to me, clearly elated.

I wish I could say the same of my baby. He was supposed to give me the same feelings I gave my parents, but his birth was bittersweet. Yes, I am happy to finally have the tag of mother, but not this way. At least, I wanted to be surrounded by the ones I love, by the one who planted the seed, not in this loneliness, confined to my thoughts, unable to see or hold...