– get out of here Henry!!! It's an order

— I can't Naïla, I still want to make love to you

- but I tell you that I don't want to anymore, let go of me, you see how much you have destroyed my life, and I realize that all this is bad especially to live with someone who has no ambition , I don't want anything from you leave me alone

- what are you talking about ? You know very well that no man will make you scream like I do, um (coming closer to me)

— I really pity you Henry find yourself another sexFriend and leave me alone, you disgust me

— I'll tell you one thing, it's not going to happen like (holding my arm)

- let me go henry you hurt me

- Tell me Naila you see another right?

Silence

- answer me I say!

I was actually just sick of being treated like a sex object, I needed love, real love as the word says, I'm tired of being with someone who uses me just when he wants to be good, it's true that I've been faithful to him all this time and it's moreover to him that I gave my virginity, because I really loved him but he doesn't think never to move forward, he's a lazy person, moreover the main thing is done if I was able to meet David, I knew he was going to come looking for me, that was the plan in fact, I ignore the guy by putting water in his mouth then hop he's dead on the hook, that's what's done I'm too proud of myself....

- Henry, I see another or not, it's not your problem, go away that's all I ask of you!

Henry: Ok I hope you know where to find me when you change your mind!

- never again henry!

I locked the door letting myself fall on the bed, it's all really bad I can't be with a man who doesn't encourage me to follow the right path, my sisters you even will bore you talking only sex instead of projects, I make myself understood there, it's true that Henry is my first friend, he helped me a lot but our path must stop there because we no longer see life in the same way , you won't believe it but despite this status I was still faithful to him but since he only thinks about sleeping, I'm no longer interested he wants to destroy my life there, I realize that my beauty doesn't make me a real woman, the last option is to repent, move my ass and get a job, David offered me a job but I don't know if it's good for me or not, what did I do? Basically it was for him to offer me a job but that's going too far there, it's true that after my studies I struggled to get a job, my father who wanted me to further my studies while I had another dream of becoming Miss Guinea, which was the case in 2018 and since I realized this dream it no longer goes between my family and me, everyone judges me, they have in mind that this practice is only intended to indulge in prostitution, I gave in too much to their whim, I had to think about myself for a moment, the images of the past came back to me again and again, "you have already destroyed your life , no man will want to marry you seeing pictures of you half-naked on social networks", "you will end up alone Naïla" if you don't listen to us "you will never have the baraka (blessing)" because I have only wanted to do what was close to my heart, it's complicated to live in a family where honor comes first instead of the well-being of the children, it's pitiful huh and the worst you will never see these people talk badly about theirs but me my family is quite the opposite, it's true that there are times when they supported me, it dates back to when I was doing their business of course i.e. getting good grades in school, being the nice submissive girl, it's just that i didn't know at the moment what was good for me, this voice was ringing in my head over and over again , sitting in the jacuzzi, the hot water ran through my body like the rays I saw in my room, I just wanted one thing and I couldn't hold back, I screamed like crazy .....

When I hear someone knocking at the door...

Alioune: what is it? Naila are you there?

I didn't even know he was there, alioune he's a distant cousin that I had hired as a cook, yes I had the means to pay him but since I was ruined I asked that he leave , which is amazing , he told me he can't give up on me during this situation i'm going through right now, i'm moved to know how loyal he is.....

— don't worry alioune I needed it

Him: you scared me

- it's ok I'm taking my bath

Him: you have visitors anyway

David, again David, I don't know what mess I got myself into, wanting to play seduction, I no longer assume the fallout, when I should, it's not rocket science!

- who is that again?

— the hunk from the last time

- Let him loose my jacket see!

— Pretty Naïla, when you sow the wind, you also have to expect to reap the storm

- Alioune, fuck you!

Laugh

He went back to his business and I changed to join David, I'm going to be clear with him, I can't stop wanting more, I want to know the suffering, the ease doesn't suit me anymore, I don't recognize myself not, what I'm going to tell him later, maybe he won't believe it but .....

David: I called you miss

— my cell phone is off

David: what's wrong? Are you unwell?

- no David don't worry about me

David: if you accepted my friendship, I must also tell you that your problems are mine

— that's so kind of you, I don't deserve all this

- but if my beautiful, then I received no call from you for the proposal made?

— I can't take this job David thanks but you better stay away from me

He just stared at me with his eyes wide open, what did I say wrong? I'm serious though...

- What did you say ? Well I understand if you don't want to work with me but until you chase me no I refuse to believe you

— yet you should David, I don't know what took me to do that but I'm really sorry you don't deserve a woman like me, go away David please, I don't want to see you anymore

I went back to my room under the shocked gaze of David, I'm so ashamed of myself, why did I act like this? No idea, understand me now that I've managed to trick David into my trap, I feel bad, I feel like I'm begging when that's not how I should behave, I don't like yes but it's too shameful that he is attentive to me in this way .....

Thinking he's gone, I walked out of the bathroom with red eyes, yes I cried and that's one of my strengths, come out crying what I can't express, yes we tough ones we also have a way to relax, what to be ashamed of?

He was still sitting on the couch like I hadn't just shamed him in the world, he got up when....

David: I'm going to leave but it won't be like that Naïla

He said that to me with eyes full of regret, at that point? I already felt bad for him but what to do? I don't want to get in trouble, maybe he'll press charges because I played with his feelings? You never know, he never took his eyes off me, at that very moment I told myself that he was going to swallow me if only he had this power, he resumes....

David: Naïla, I love you and I don't intend to give up, if I have to wait I will

He turned towards the door as he left, I again threw myself on the sofa wondering what I had just done....

Chacha: you thought you were in a series of novelas, right? Do you think playing with people's feelings is normal? Henry really destroyed you

- this is not the time to judge me and besides you've been there how long?

Her: since you were whining there, I don't know why, you have to wake up Naïla, you promised me and you have to do it

— already I cut all ties with Henry

Laugh

Chacha: frankly it was about time

- are you serious ? It wasn't easy huh, the guy still wanted to sleep can you imagine?

Chacha: how can you gain weight with that, look at you? Looks like this David has changed something in you, he's so cute and kind, by the way if you don't want anything serious with him, can we?

I don't know why but I wanted to strangle your girlfriend, of course I love David but I don't know what to do? I'm honestly lost! Instead of helping me, she makes the situation worse...

— hey but it's not funny Chacha

Laugh

- you saw the look you gave me, it shows that you like this gentleman

- please? It's more than that Chacha, David gives me new effects that I've never felt before, when we barely know each other, I'm afraid of falling in love and that he will destroy me too

- you see why I said that this Henry had too much influence on you, way I see this David even his way of responding to a greeting proves that he received an extraordinary education, I swear to you that his mother must have educate him in such a way that he will not harm even a fly

- are you serious? Where are you getting that from, that's so fucking absurd.

- you can think as you want but that's it Naïla and I promise you that this gentleman is not just anyone and all girls at the moment dream of having him, so you will let your efforts escape in the ocean ? As you struggled to get here my dear

Am I mean? I already regret having told David to go away, I blame myself...

— so I do how oh my God! I already regret Chacha

- you'll just remember!

- what ? Not today I'm too ashamed there

- in any case if you do not it is I who will do it my dear!

DAVID GOMEZ ...

I came home exhausted, guys so I have to deal with a psycho, in any case this game is likely to go very far, I was smiling without even realizing it, this woman is likely to drive me crazy every day, again and again...

Eric: once again she disrespected you boss

— Eric, I like women like that, not the one who throws herself at my money, you know she didn't ask me for anything, all these gifts are from me, for the job too she just refused me

Eric: are you serious boss? She must have a pebble instead of the brain

Laugh

— on the contrary Éric is a very cunning woman who knows what she is doing, she must surely have a painful past, for the moment I am not judging her (smile)

Eric: boss you are really in love with this woman, just talking about her, you smile

— Eric, this woman I don't know if she's a devil but she stole my heart and you can't do anything for me anymore

Laugh

Eric is my driver but also my confidant, he knows that I'm not used to expressing my feelings but this time it's a matter of life or death, finally I met the woman who should !

He dropped me off at my house, I went directly to my room before seeing my sister and her daughter, I know that Lili is a witch, she will realize it anyway….

Sitting on the sofa on my balcony, I hear Faby's cries in my room, she is surely looking for me....

Faby: uncle but where were you? I looked for you all over the house

- I'm here princess

Faby: but you didn't even come to see me, are you angry with mum?

— but not a princess at all (smile)

Lili: who's mad at mum?

Laugh

Faby: look at uncle, tanti Hawa's madwoman is here

Laugh

Hawa: faby it's me you call yourself crazy wait until I take care of you naughty go

— that I don't agree my princess is too cute (kiss)

Faby: thank you uncle, you are my favorite

Laugh

Lili: okay now tell us what's wrong?

- why is that ? Nothing happens

Hawa stole my cell phone while a few minutes ago I was looking at Naïla's photo….

Lili: she's the one who put you in this state, huh?

Hawa: but waouuuu is it Naïla Cams? You know her ? Oh dear she's my favorite model she pleases me too much, I want to meet her

— yes I know her but I didn't know that you liked her

Hawa: it's too much of a bomb

- that I don't make you say

Lili: I see that you love her just by talking about her your eyes are shining, I've never seen you like that

Hawa: I want her too much as a sister-in-law, I'll take my picture with her and show my friends

— hey but wait why are you interfering in my life like that, you will never take pictures with her because she does not want to be with me

Lili: or because she wants to be desired for a long time?

— no idea Lili, I'm lost

Lili: oh my big baby, the woman who makes my little brother's heart beat is finally here

Hawa: I have an idea Lili

Lili: me too sis

Laugh

- What are you talking about ?

They: nothing just a girl thing (looking at each other)

My sisters are really crazy, I was seriously jaded tonight that I didn't stop myself from smoking a cigarette, it's been a long time huh, I'm in a different mood there.....

THE WEEKEND…..

I slept until 2 p.m. I got so drunk last night, it was on the occasion of a friend's birthday, these days I only think of Naïla, what is it? which already takes me, while I have to make a trip next week if all goes well….

Going down the stairs, I arrive in the living room to drink my tea when.