I cried almost all night because of what happened.  Many came to my mind and I planned to apologize to Smael, but it was no longer in his room.

I did nothing but use my cellphone only.  When we eat or help cook, I don't tell them what happened, I'm just on my mind.  I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about how I can talk to, Smael.  Because even if I call his number I can't be reached.

Is he that mad at me?

It's been four days and Smael is still gone, so I'm even sadder, I keep calling his number but it always turns off.

Even though...