Ethan left the house and here I was all alone and by myself .

As I sat in that room thinking about all the things that would happen to me , I just can’t help but imagine if my mom was to be in support of this .

I knew that she would be here at this moment trying to make sure that I wasn't alone , but no, all of this isn’t going to happen because right now I know that I am all by myself for the first time ever .

It hurts so much to know that my parents don’t care if I am alive or not...