It was cold outside and I could do nothing but stare into the chilled glass window. I can't stop my own tears. Ezekiel's weeping at that time kept coming back to my mind. My chest writhes in pain.

When I left. .I also left and forgot my love for him. I accepted to myself that there was no hope.

Here I am now, not ready for anything. Yes, maybe I am so selfish. But this is the pain made me. It made me numb and afraid to risk again.

I am not ready for any commitment. .the only thing in my brain is to work to give the twins a...