I can't help myself not to cry. I just want to cry until there are no more tears left to shed. I don't understand why she can't be more understanding of the situation.

I don't understand why there is a need for her to make me feel that I am useless and that I am the one to be blamed for Oliver's death. If I had the chance to redo everything, I might choose to be in his shoes, and his mother might appreciate it.

I was thinking if I would be the one who died, will there be someone to cry for me aside from Bella? Why it's so...