"Why didn't you just come back?" If he had come back earlier, we could've been friends, friends that grew into being mates. There would've been none of this drama.

Xander sighs, "Somethings happened in my life. Things that made me go in a different path...a darker path in life. I knew I wasn't the Xander that you wanted. One look at me and you'd be thinking...'who's this guy? This isn't the boy I knew,' I felt ashamed of myself. I felt disgusted. I convinced myself that there would be no chance of us being together because of how messed I am. Because all the bad shit I've done."

Xander's jaw...