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"Arat! It's a shame. Because there's a kj." Hera said and looked at us evilly.

Is this a problem? We're just waiting.

"come on WHAHAHA you have extra clothes right?" Ceah asked his colleagues. His friends nodded as well as the woman they were helping.. Right? Thank you

"let's go!" Ceah shouted and ran and walked with the other three girls. It's refreshing ahh.. He used to not want to get dirty but now? He is really different.

"woi gurl, you're upset, you didn't finish painting that on the wall..." Lixa threatened a girl she didn't know who was with them. We haven't heard what Ceah and his colleagues were saying because they are far away from us but I can see their laughter...

"d-dont tell me..." Clide promised in disbelief.

"Are they friends? Playing like children?" Hanz added calmly.

It's a miracle that you spoke.

'it's fun watching them Ice knina noe.'

'HAHA yes. Ice showed his crazy side today.'

'they are funny hihi sanaol'

'Ceah looks kind and humble ahh'

Various whispers from the students surrounding it... While we, here in the middle. Stunned because of the way they acted Ceah.

"hmm, you were embarrassed by that, ahh. That's because, judging immediately, you don't know what really happened or is happening." Hanz smiled and lectured us then left the three of us there.

It's refreshing ahh... What happened to the former Ceah that we know so well?

》ICEAH'S P.O.V《

My friend and I are here today in the garden including the girl we laughed with because of my craziness. We have already cleaned our bodies and changed our clothes and we decided to go to the garden first. The woman said it's okay but she didn't finish what she was painting on the wall. It's not that important...

"By the way, we've been with you but we still don't know you. What's your name?" Lixa broke the silence.

"uhm Ylaine. Ylaine Zyrielle Samonte." introduction of the woman―este Ylaine.

"Nice name huh? BTW I'm Lixaille Faye Scott. You can call me Lixa. Nice to meet you." Lixa also introduced herself smiling

"and I am Herabella Crys Montefalco. You can call me Hera, we're friends again." Hera also said.

"it's my turn!" I said cheerfully.

"I'm Ice―"

"Iceah Alexandra Trevor. I've known you for a long time. Most known as Cea―" I interrupted Ylaine's mention of my nickname before.

"Ice." I said enough to make him stop.

"Just call me Ice. I didn't know you knew me." I said in surprise.

"yeah. You're the talk of the whole university. It's usually your bad attitude that they always gossip about. Actually, I didn't think we'd be friends and... You're fun to be with." Ylaine chattered to us with a smile.

The three of us just smiled.

"Are we friends now?" Ylaine assured.

"of course." we answered at the same time.

"Good thing Ice is crazy now. What did he eat?" Lixa joked.

"he eats shit." Hera answered so they laughed.

"I'll feed you shit?" I asked seriously and glared at Hera.

"I said it was just a joke." He answered with a snort because of our laughter.

》ALEXUS' P.O.V《

"Hey, are you alright?"

'Why did Ceah change? He is very different compared to before...'

"Bro, what's wrong with you?"

'He doesn't even pay attention to us anymore... I mean, he doesn't pay attention to us anymore...'

"Alexus!"

'in the past, he almost gave up on us, but now why doesn't he seem to care... About me?'

"ALEXUS! BRO!" My two companions except Hanz shouted. I frowned and covered my ears at the loudness of their screams...

"fvck! Why are you screaming?!" I also shouted back at her.

We're here on the rooftop today because we just took a trip to get some fresh air after embarrassing ourselves in the hallway earlier.

"We've been talking to you bro, but you're not paying attention to us." Cloud answered.

"You're still an idiot and you're deep in thought." Clyde added.

"lemme guess... Is it about Ice? Isn't it?" Hanz asked emotionlessly.

I tried to shake my head at what Hanz said.

"NO!" I answered him

"why would i think about her? Who the heck is her for me to think about? Tsk that's so impossible!" I added.

"so... Why are you so defensive? I'm just asking." he said smiling and looked at the sky again.

Why am I defensive? What is happening to me? I'm just changing with that desperate woman. That's right. I'm just updating...

"I'm just answering your question. I'm not being defensive." I promise seriously.

"I see." was Hanz's only answer.

"But yeah... Ice changed a lot." none of Clide's own words.

"what do you mean?" I asked.

"Her attitude... I mean, she is very different from the old Ceah we know." I don't know but Clide's tone seems sad? But maybe I was wrong, why would Clide be sad about that?

"hmm i guess something happened that made her think to change." Hanz replied.

"She told us that she's tired already... She told us that she's tired of everything." Cloud answered with a sigh while saying that.

"It's good and he's tired enough to notice." I am satisfied with her.

"or maybe she's tired of explaining the truth." said Hanz that makes our forehead frowned.

"What do you mean, Hanz?" Clide asked.

"what are you going to?" Cloud also wondered.

"Do you know anything about Ceah?"

"Do you know anything about Ceah?" I asked too.

Hanz looked at us...

"Nothing." he answered then left us dumbfounded.

"Are you there?" Clide asked again.

"i dunno." Cloud answered.

"I'm not asking you." Clide asked Cloud.

"then who's your asking?" Cloud also asked Clide.

"nothing.. I'm talking to myself." Clide promised emphatically.

"it means you're crazy." Cloud said shaking his head.

"I'm not crazy!" -clide

"you are crazy!" - cloud

"I'm no―"

"Both of you are crazy!" I shouted to silence him.

"leave me alone 'cuz you're both noisy. Get out!" I gave them an order so they followed it shaking their heads.

I sighed when I was left alone. I don't know why I seem to be affected by Ice's change. I should've been happy 'cuz she's not following me wherever I go. She's not disturbing me now. It is of no use to me. But why can't I feel something somewhere in me? Argh maybe I'm just overthinking.

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The girls started crying when we walked to the cafeteria... I was still with my three friends. My eyes immediately caught Ceah, who was eating with three of his friends... They were friends with the girl they were helping paint the other day.

Ceah turned to us and looked at the four of us one by one... I thought he would stand up from his seat and start paying attention to me but I was wrong... He just turned his gaze back to his friends and continued eating. Argh why am I annoyed when she's ignoring me?! What's happening to me?!

"Brother, are you okay?" Clide asked me so I returned to my trance.

I clenched my fist while thinking about Ceah. Why is that girl here in my mind?!

"Brother!" Clide shook me again so I diverted my gaze to Ceah and continued walking.

"Has Ice done something to you that makes you feel bad about him?" Clide asked me as soon as we sat down in our seats in the cafeteria. Did he notice the way I looked at Ceah?

"Does he pay attention to you?" Cloud asked as well.

The brothers are really talking.

"no. I'm just annoyed." I didn't answer myself and ate the egg sandwich I ordered.

"annoyed? Annoyed from what?" Clide asked. While Hanz was just quietly eating.

"Annoyed b'cuz of Ce―" I immediately interrupted what my mouth was about to say. Argh what's happening to me?!

"never mind." I take back what I was going to say.

"wewwzzz you're being weird, bro." Cloud said shaking his head and drank his juice.

Okay fine, even to myself I'll admit it. I'm annoyed because Ceah's ignoring me. I don't know why? All I know is I'm annoyed because she changed...

》ICEAH'S P.O.V《

"Okay, then. Bye! Good luck to us." I said goodbye to Lixa while ending the call with her. Yeah, I was talking to him earlier on my cellphone. We just talked hihi.

I'm here now in the kitchen. I was drinking water when Lixa called me.

I was about to leave the kitchen when I suddenly saw my brother Cloud already at the kitchen door. I was a little surprised but I didn't pay attention to it because he was looking at me badly. I was about to pass him when he spoke.

"where are you going?" he asked firmly and coldly.

I stopped walking and answered him.

"in my room." I don't feel like answering.

I was about to leave the kitchen when brother Cloud grabbed my wrist.

"ahhh― what are you doing?!" I snorted because it hurt to hold him!

I didn't answer and he pulled me out of the kitchen. And no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't do it because he was strong! Damn! What is happening to him?!

"hey where are we going?!" I ask here again.

"there!" he answered and casually let go of my reddened hand. There are still traces of his hand on my wrist. Shit! I even bumped into the door with the force of his throwing my hand― wait, door? Why did I bring him here to the door?!

"go out! Get out!" he shouted as he opened the door.

Go out? Why? What did I do to make him angry?! did i do something wrong?!

"Out!" he's pushing me away.

"but why?! Did I do something wrong to be punished?! Really?!" I couldn't help but raise my voice because I didn't do anything! All of a sudden he got bored and asked me out?

As far as I remember they're letting me sleep out side when I do something wrong. They sent me out of the house as a punishment for what I said to be stupid, but I didn't do anything wrong today, right?!

"Just get out!" my brother ordered me. Really shout? Does she have her period? Ts

I just let out a deep breath and slapped brother Cloud, then voluntarily left the mansion!

*BLACK*

Big brother Cloud closed the door with a loud bang and I heard it lock.

I don't know, I'm confused. I didn't do anything but why am I going to punish him?!

"Arghhh fvck!"

I just pulled myself together because I'm really confused by what's going on!

Hyst, it's a good thing I brought my cellphone. I opened it and looked at the time. It's already 8:34 in the evening. I haven't even eaten yet!

I couldn't go out of my gate and I was only allowed outside the house. I just walked to the back of the mansion where our mini-garden is. I was walking while observing the flowers... I missed it here in the garden. It's because I don't get out of the mansion, I only go out when I have school, I don't get to wander around here in the mansion!

I sat on the grass because there was nowhere else to sit except for the two swings in the middle. I don't want to go on the swing because I'm a little sleepy. I might still fall asleep there and fall there...

I held my breath again as I tried to think what did I do wrong that made brother Cloud angry? Anyways I'm thankful because he didn't hurt me.

*KNOCK*

I patted my shoulder hard because a mosquito landed. Pft I just laughed a little when I saw the mosquito's blood on my hand... You're dead now you're a mosquito.

I remember when I was quite young and I was still a desperate and attention seeker. I used to cry when they punished me and sent me out of the house when I came home late at night and sometimes when I slapped Irish for what he did to me.

__FLASHBACK__

"Brother no, please!" I begged while crying and clinging tightly to the hands of brother Cloud and brother Clide. Because they forced me out of the house as a punishment for retaliating for what Irish did to me. Well, I just slapped Irish because he called me adopted!

"get out! It's your punishment!" older brother Clide shouted and kept trying to let me out.

"If you hurt our princess again, that's not all you'll get! I might even throw you out of here!" Brother Cloud added. And he suddenly let go of my hand that was holding him. It's the same with brother Clide. While Irish just grinned at me. Princess? Thank you

"please bro huhu i don't wanna sleep out side..." I cried and begged her. I'm scared of the dark because they just tortured me and slammed the door shut. I can still hear it locking.

I couldn't do anything but sit in front of the door... I just let myself cry. I couldn't do anything but cry.

'why are they all doing this to me? Am i this really bad to suffer? I just wanted to be loved but why are they always scolding me like I'm not their sister? Why am I suffering like this?! Even my dad and mom are hurting me. No one loves me! No one.. Even my self.' I said in my mind which made me cry even more.

I thought of getting up from sitting in front of the door of our mansion and I walked to the back of our house where our little garden is. I can feel the swelling in my eyes... Not long ago I received a slap from my brother and now they let me out of the house to spend the night here?! Why don't they believe me? They didn't even listen to all my explanations! I always talk to her saying 'pleaseee let me explain!' but they just don't care.

I sat on the ground and sobbed again.

'When will I be able to experience their love? When will I experience being the princess of my two older brothers? When will I be happy in life?... How long will I suffer like this? How long can I endure their cruelty to me? How long do I have to experience this?' I was still crying and said to myself.

I don't know but my body was tired and I let myself lie gently on the ground. My eyelids are getting heavy as if they want to close their eyes. I first wiped my tears and then looked at the sky with many stars.

"I hope when I wake up tomorrow, everything will be fine..." last word I said after I close my eyes.

__END OF FLASHBACK__

"pfft" I just laughed at what I remembered then. I didn't laugh at what I went through but I laughed at what I asked for...

I was still quite young that's why I thought that when I woke up, everything will be alright already... But I was wrong.

Because when I wake up it's still like that! To this day I am still suffering. Until now they still don't love me. It's a good thing they don't have mom and dad right now because they're in the states and something was arranged at the company, otherwise they might have slapped me.

I have a family, but I'm not loved. Actually i didn't really understand why they're treating me like this! I didn't know what I did to make them so angry with me.

I just sighed because I was too tired to think.

But I smiled a little later because I realized that I didn't cry today. Yeahh, I didn't cry... I was too tired to shed tears then. I'm proud of myself because I didn't let my tears fall.

I lay down on the ground I was sitting on and then looked again at the sky full of stars. Luckily, there's no rain.

I felt sleepy... And everything went black. If I was young, I might have asked again that everything would be fine when I woke up. But I'm matured enough to understand that all my suffering is not over yet.

》CLOUD'S PO.V《

"oh brother, where did you go? Why do you look like that? You seem very angry ahh." Clide promised one after the other when he saw me in the living room. I sat next to him and sighed.

"I just punished Ice." I answer here.

Yeahh I just came from the door and Ice just came out. I hate him, so much!

"Woah why?" Clide asked me a strange and unbelievable question..

__FLASHBACK__

I'm going to the kitchen now to drink water. I don't know, but I'm still thinking about Ice's change... Could it be that he has really changed? Or is he just acting to make us believe?

"oumm yeahh... We will improve our acting to be more believable." I heard Ice say in the kitchen?

I came closer to the kitchen door and listened to who he was talking to on the phone...

"You're right! And when we're done with that acting acting. We'll get what we want!" Ice added happily. I couldn't hear who she was talking to on the other line, but I guess it's one of her friends?

"Yeahh you're right! Our act should be more believable." Ice said again to his interlocutor.

Act? What act? Is he just acting like he doesn't care about us and is trying to be nice to win our hearts?! Are the ones he showed in the past just part of their act?! What the fvck Ice! You can almost believe me with that act!

"Let's get to the act ahh... I hope the outcome will be good hihi.." Ice giggly said.

Arghh my blood is heating up here! All these weeks, the attitude she showed to us was just a freaking fvcking act?!

"Okay, then. Bye! Good luck to us." I heard Ice say again then the call ended on his phone.

I immediately felt annoyed because I almost believed it! She almost got my heart, but good thing i heard her now talking to her freind about that fvcking act they're talking about!

I entered the kitchen and I saw how surprised he was to see me but he immediately recovered and was about to pass me when I spoke.

"where are you going?" I asked him firmly and coldly.

I can't imagine that I was almost fooled by her damn act!

He stopped then answered.

"in my room." she answered calmly.

You're a great actress, Ice ahh...

He was about to leave the kitchen when I suddenly touched his wrist.

"ahh― what are you doing?" moans and complaints.

I really tightened my grip on his wrist because of annoyance. Annoyed because I can almost believe that he has changed but it's all just a damn act!

I didn't answer him and continued to drag him out of the kitchen and towards the door to punish him. He struggled but I tightened my grip on his wrist even more.

"hey where are we going?" he snorted again.

"there!" I shouted and suddenly let go of his hand which caused him to be kicked out of the door.

"go out! Get out!" I shouted at her while opening the door.

I can see the surprise on his face. Is he really upholding that act?!

"Out!" I pushed him away because I was so annoyed by what I heard from him.

"But why?! Did I do something wrong to be punished?! Really?!" He asked me in annoyance and surprise.

Is he still screaming?! That's a pure act! Very good!

"Just get out!" I have no intention of explaining to him what I heard. That's enough to punish him! I heard enough to annoy and get angry with him. He didn't need to explain because I could clearly hear what he said to the person he was talking to on the phone. That was enough to make me angry because I could almost believe that damn act!

Ice took a deep breath, then slapped me and went out. Really? Does he still have the desire to dream?! Actually I thought she'll kneel in front of me then she'll plead me to hear her explanation but now? Did he leave on his own? I expected to drag him but he took the initiative. But it's okay. Rather than not being able to control myself and hurting him.

I also slammed the door and locked it so he couldn't enter.

Arghh I'm so dissapointed! I thought you already changed, Ice. But fvck i didn't expect that the attitude you showed us a week ago was just a freaking act?!

__END OF FLASHBACK__

"Rally?!" Clide asked me in disbelief that I could tell him what I heard.

"yeahh... And I am so dissapointed that's why I suddenly got angry with him. Maybe he didn't know that I heard him while he was talking to his friend on the phone so he's still confused why I punished him." I gave a long answer to Clide.

"hyst she's really a desperate b1tch! I almost fooled by her act!" Clide also promised dissapointed.

》ICEAH'S P.O.V《

I woke up because of the sun rays touching my face. I slowly got up and rubbed my eyes. I took my phone from my jeans pocket and checked the time..

"What?!" I turned around when I saw that it was 7:34. WTF?! I need to start moving. The class starts at 8 but the school is quite far away and another thing, I just walk to get there so it will take me a long time. I rushed into the house and luckily it was already unlocked! I guess they left earlier. I showered and cleaned myself and ran so I wouldn't be late.

"Hoo" I sighed and wiped the little sweat dripping from my forehead. After running.

When I entered the gate, there weren't many students... fvck! I might be late!

*KNOCK! THICK! KNOCK!" I knocked loudly on the door of our room and immediately someone opened it.

It was our class president. I walked in breathless but one thing I noticed... the teacher wasn't there yet?!

Shit, I'm so tired, it's easy, but I don't have my first subject yet! But it's better than being late.

"Ohh gurl, why are you so haggard?" Question when feeling close to the president. He's really kind.

"It's not." I answered. I don't want to be bad. So I answered that, maybe he would think I was rude if I ignored him.

"Oh Ice, what happened?" Lixa asked.

I approached where they were sitting and sat in my seat.

"I thought I was wrong, that's why I rushed to come here." I answered while still catching my breath.

"Hmm maybe you stayed up late last night so you woke up late." Hera looks like a mother to me. I stayed up, didn't stay up pft

"Maybe haha" I answered and faked a laugh.

No, I just remembered what brother Cloud did to me. He punished me without any reason?! Thank you

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*CRYGG~*

The bell rings. Means, lunch time!

We are now at the cafeteria and Hera ordered our food. Actually I'm really hungry. Considering that, I didn't eat last night and I didn't even have breakfast because I was in a hurry. I'm hungry but why don't I feel like eating? Thank you for the art of my stomach!

"Woii help me ohhh" I heard Hera shout. Because he ordered rice and dishes, it will be really difficult for him to carry all three.

"Let me." I said goodbye to Lixa who nodded so I immediately went to the counter and took the one for me. While Hera was holding hers and Lixa's.

I was just looking at the fried chivken and my rice and I was already hungry. Erase what I said that I had no appetite because I suddenly liked the smell of my pickled dish. Yeah, my dish is fried chicken and pickles. There are two of them but please! I'm hungry! HAHA

"AaaAayYyy!" I screamed when suddenly someone hit me. Aishhhh what the heck I'm hungry!

"Oopxx HAHA there is no water, why are you swimming?" Artful and mischievous promise to cut me off. None other than best actress, attention seeker b1tch, Irish!

My blood warmed because of his voice and because of my hunger. I regretfully looked at the food when it was spilled on the floor and I looked at Irish. Lixa ran to me and helped me stand up. I didn't realize that Hera had already placed her and Lixa's food on our table, so she is now by my side.

When I stood up, I looked at Irish again. This girl is really bad!

I was about to leave because I was really hungry when he grabbed my hair and twisted it.

"You're going to turn your back on me! Ah?!" He shouted angrily.

He's the one who hit me and he's the one who's angry?! Dirty!

"Hackdog." I promised without emotion while holding his hand that was clinging to my hair.

"And you're still philosophizing?!" He screamed and tightened his grip on me and brought me closer to him.

"What the hell let her go!" Hera shouted. My eyes are getting really dark with this girl!

"Stop it Irish! You're exaggerating!"