I smile bitterly as I look down.

"If only mom understands my feelings, and if she just doesn't stop me from confessing to Ceah before... That should be me." I said sadly.

Yeah, I told mom about my feelings to Ceah but she got mad at me. She told me that I shouldn't be liking Ceah without any reason. She just told me that she doesn't like Ceah for me. And she threatened me that if I told Ceah what I feel... Ceah will suffer. And I'm afraid that my mom will do what she said. I don't want the day happened that my mom will be the reason why...