My desire at this moment? To give him pleasure but above all to push back my sleep. I didn't know what could happen if I closed my eyes while falling asleep. I wanted to spend a sleepless night, fleeing this presence. What if Pharell found out what I was hiding? What excuse would I give him? I had to find a solution before sleep could reach me. This fear invaded my mind. I did not know what to do. I became anxious, distressed and fearful in the face of all this.

Half an hour later, Pharell had fallen asleep. It was one a.m. I was afraid to close my eyes...