I wanted to die, run away, go far! I had just had a conversation with my lover's wife but... I was in total shock! I couldn't believe it.. All of a sudden I realized once again what status I had in Pharell's life.. His mistress.. I come after his wife and children unfortunately.. I don't could not speak to him as I wished, nor call him as I wanted.. I was saddened to the point that I cannot describe my feelings..

After this discussion, we played for a while with the children and then we went home to watch television as a family. I was very disturbed because of the...