I have been out on a run multiple times, letting Aspen free to take out his stress, hurt and anger on some smaller prey. He is pining for his mate right now, not understanding why his mate has left, though in all fairness I don’t fully understand what has happened. Lola has explained things, but it still doesn’t make sense to me, or maybe I don’t want it to make sense.

My heart and my head are hurting too much right now, I know at some point I am going to have to be a big boy and accept that my mate just doesn’t want to be with me, or...