But I'm already disappointed in him.

And the guru's phrase popped up in my brain: You have one life and you deserve the best candidate. Gather a crowd around you, let the laws of nature work, choose the best.

Smolov was not the best, now I saw it as clearly as my own hands.

Unpatriotic? How about our Russian women: and a galloping horse, and into a burning hut, and for her husband into exile ...

Perhaps, but only I want to be happy, and not suffer on the Kolyma. I have learned to listen to my desire.

Selfish? Maybe. But who said that you have to put your life...