The size of the Lian's smile while we were walking here in the night market, and he was holding my butt, and I was also stepping on him and pinching him.

 

"Stop, will you? Someone sees us!"

 

"Oh, someone will see. So?"  He said, With his arrogant attitude, I smirked and flipped my hair.

 

"So you face me; will you stop following me?" Then I tormented him and passed him, but he pulled me back, and I landed on his chest. Now he is wearing a jacket, but earlier he was naked. Maybe he got cold; he was too cold.

 

"Why aren't you naked now?" I asked, and he raised an eyebrow at me and grinned at me.

 

"Didn't you get fed up earlier? You want to see me without a shirt?" I fake my laugh and point at his face.

 

"You? I didn't know you were good at making people laugh. Then I don't know why I was here with you until now, and then you molested me," I said, and he imitated the way I laughed earlier. It's annoying.

 

"Molested? What is that? Is that edible?" he asked seriously, then he took off his clothes, so I covered my mouth while people turned to him and looked at him while he was smiling at me, so I turned my back, and then he took my hand and knelt. The people around me stared at him.

 

"Baby, I'm sorry, and I just can't stop loving you. That's why I am selfish when it's all about you." What came to his mind, and he managed to do that in front of a lot of people.

 

I'm ashamed, and what if someone knows me? What will they think? That I'm cheating on Remon when he has a lot of trust in me?

 

What if it gets in the news, especially if someone is following me?

 

My tears are falling, and he doesn't want to stop, so Lian suddenly got dressed and hugged me while I punched his chest while his hug was tight.

 

My knee is getting soft, and I'm afraid there are still camera flashes, and what if someone uploads it and Remon sees it? What will happen to us?

 

"Shhh, let's go," he said, then took what I had from my hand while he was holding my wrist. He was ahead, and we were going to the park when I removed his hold on my hand, and he turned to me and frowned at me. How dare he act like he's the victim even though I'm the one who did it myself?

 

"Will you stop acting like you're the hero here, Liandoan Salvia, okay? Tell me, if what you did earlier got to my fiancé, what would I say? You know you're a pest in my life," I said, then passed him, but he chased after me and reached for my hand.

 

"Calm down-"

 

"Tell me how I can calm down if my relationship with Remon is in danger! If you're bored, don't owe me anything; I don't want to be with you. I'm already engaged; it's embarrassing, what will I face when Remon finds out that I agreed to give you an oral sex? I'll give you a handjob and cause a commotion in the market. It's just life!" I shouted before sitting down with my hands on both ears and trying to calm myself down.

 

"Listen, Lesley, I just want to see you happy."

 

"Shut up."

 

"And to entertain you—"

 

"Shut up."

 

"And I thought that was the."

 

"I said shut your fucking mouth! I don't want to hear anything from you, Liandoan. Will you leave me alone; you can't bring happiness and entertainment to me, you know why." I asked, and then he stared into my eyes and waited to hear what I would say.

 

"You're not my fiancé, you're not my regret, and you're not the person I love, so you can't bring happiness to me. You know what's better: leave me alone. Because, honestly, I don't want to see your face here, Liandoan. I loathed you," I said with emphasis while staring seriously into his eyes. He looked away and closed his eyes before he walked away.

 

I held my breath until he was far away.

 

The paper bags she was holding were left where she was standing, so I sat down on the rock and held the bag I had bought earlier.

 

Damn, how is that possible? Should I call Remon now? What if he already saw it? What about us? I can't afford to lose him. I love him.

 

My hand was shaking when I stood up and decided to walk and go home. Maybe tomorrow I'll talk to him.

 

I feel like I'm at a loss today; too many things have happened, and others seem unbelievable and difficult.

 

I took a taxi home to the hotel—Lian's hotel. I feel guilty that I did that. I could have avoided Lian for Remon, but I didn't.

 

It is shameful, and I am the one who is hurt by my actions and my carelessness.

 

What will we do if Remon can't forgive me?

 

That's all I have, nothing else. I'm the problem if I let it get away from me and don't take care of it properly.

 

"Thank you," I said when I got up, and I was like, I wasn't myself when I entered, and I was limping. Everything that happens to me makes me feel sick. Then tomorrow I have a photo shoot before I return to the Philippines.

 

Others thought it was easy to be a model, but nah. You will have a hard time if he is not your passion. Well, thanks, and I like all of this.

 

When I got on the elevator, I remembered Lian—where could he have gone? Where is that?

 

Why would I look for that man if he is going to be the reason for me and Remon's separation?

 

I sighed before I got out when the elevator opened, and I wanted to sleep and rest.

 

To: My lemon

My lemon, sorry, I was busy. I'll call you later. Take care, and always remember that I love you more than you do.

 

After I sent it, I took off everything I was wearing before putting on my loose shirt and full A/C before I went to bed. I need to fix this problem.

 

..

 

I woke up late, and my thigh and hand hurt, maybe because of what happened yesterday.

 

I quickly showered and ate for the photo shoot, and then I can go home. I'm excited. Maybe I'll visit Remon after this before I go home to the Philippines so I can explain if he knows, but if he doesn't, I do not either.

 

Damn, I lied to him.

 

I held the bread in my hand as I walked to the door.

 

As soon as I opened it, liandoan salvia appeared.

 

And he was upset because he was leaning against the door, so when I opened it, he was already lying down.

 

"Oh my god, wake up!" I said, and the bread fell where it was before I shook him, and he was sleeping very soundly; he smelled awful.

 

The smell of alcohol, cigarettes, and sweat.

 

Damn!

 

I tried shaking him, but nothing happened.

 

I put down my gym bag first, and we almost fell under its weight.

 

After I entered my room, I removed his shoes and gave him warm water.

 

I rubbed his face and chest. It's like I'm sweating when I take off his pants, and only his boxers are left. I remembered what happened yesterday.

 

Yesterday my hands were inside his pants, damn! stop.

 

I even rubbed her hair and turned up the air conditioning.

 

I just shook my head when I looked at him and how soundly he was sleeping.

 

I went out and cooked for him; what's the problem?

 

I'll talk to him later, when he wakes up.

 

After I cooked, I left.