I wake up disoriented when I hear a noise.

I realize I'm sweaty and that my hands are trembling when I look around for my beeping mobile.

I irritatedly switch the alarm off.

Why the fuck do I have so many alarms at such weird times?

I swipe a hand on my face, peeling my shirt away from my damp skin,my mind muddled in thoughts.

Shower.

I need a shower.

As I head to the shower, I'm irritated that my body doesn't co-operate as I slide midway into my bean bag,tears sliding my face at an alarming rate.

Just once.

One last time,and I'm never going to cry for that...