Searching my lost soul

" I'll be grateful if I reborn as a kind heated human than a cold-hearted one, lonely and miserable." 

Ariana 

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November 2020

3:00 pm

I squeeze my cheeks from left to right and bit my lower lips if I perceive pain and it's real. I'm not dreaming now! This person in front of me was me but how can I look too modern? I made a second glance at myself in front of the mirror and I saw the same person and it's me. 

I twirled my hair with my fingers to make it curly just like my hair before but it keeps going back...