For the next week, Kane raged. In training with darkness, he squeezed all the strength out of us, and then finished off in hand-to-hand combat. Those who could still even stand on their feet after all this bullying were subjected to further torture by jogging. Never in my life have I consumed so much darkness at once and reached such inner exhaustion. Jokes about the possibility of restoring the reserve through intimacy with a man have ceased to be jokes for me. At night, I felt a vague yearning, and sometimes I experienced a very clear desire.

Except me, no one suspected the relationship and the subsequent break between Kane...